Yiting's Blog

2009-09-12T00:35:00.000+08:00

sylviefreaked.blogspot.com

hahaha i have decided to stop becoming so afraid of ppl saying that getting an english name is poseurish, so i've finally decided to totally officially adopt the name sylvie!

i totally love that name, it's awesome! always always wanted that name for myself. and now i'm gonna be 21, i CAN have it for myself! ahahhaa.

and i realised, how many ppl have english names that they picked for themselves la. LIKE SO MANY PPL. why was i so scared of being called a poseur man.

okay so i am sylvie!
=D

and hahaa. yes i am extreme, but my new blog add is gonna be @ sylviefreaked.blogspot.com!

HAHAHHAHA yes.

2009-09-07T23:37:00.004+08:00

HAHAHA THIS IS MF CUTE!!!

like siao one! hahahahahhahaha the funniest cutest dog vid ever okay!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JIKaIriiK8w

hahahahahaha

okay. ah hem. so anyway, went out w jarick's husky, and there was dnd!

i am so lazy to blog all of a sudden omg.

but ya i LOVE HUSKIES. always have since young, i want the black and white kind, but jarick's one is awesome too! one blue eye and one gold. siao one.

v nice to wrestle with and hug! and it runs bloody fast nearly killed me.

okay way too many pics
i am lazy to upload. haha

2009-09-03T03:24:00.002+08:00

okay i'm having one of those random moments in the middle of the night. like the feeling of my life being inadequate and lacking somehow rearing up from the crevice it was nestled in, a nagging existence. And i'm feeling the full-on effects of it.

like somehow there's something missing in my life. like my life is. aimless. like i've lost sight of what i'm living for. like there's something i need to find. to do. to fulfill.

it's not food. lol. i've learnt that after many many binging sessions.

it's not Left4Dead.

i don't know what it is.

i feel like disappearing and leaving everything behind. going someplace just to chill. till i find myself.

2009-09-02T08:46:00.002+08:00

damn funny Left4Dead stuff pls! hahahaha i agree it's SUPER annoying when ppl do those things.

10 Ways to Annoy People in L4D:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f_eF2AbrQhk&feature=channel_page

5 More Ways to Annoy People in L4D
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vZEac6Q8i2w&feature=channel_page

2009-09-01T15:23:00.002+08:00

HAHAHAHA i was looking at banned commercials, and these two are HILARIOUS!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f9RV2S7SdOY&feature=fvw
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GYVtjnTLlmI&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qOGB3eMhMe4&feature=related

hahhaa and yes i know the second and third one's pervie, but HAHAHAHHAHAHA.

2009-09-01T02:53:00.003+08:00

i guess after all this time, i'm still happier being single. The life i have now is one i really cherish, something i took a long time to rebuild.

I'm not willing to give that up, and i'm glad friendship still triumphed, that i didn't lose a friendship i cherish the most in ntu due to this.

i like this feeling. these nice, comfortable moments between us. just that i consider it to be more of friendship than anything else. =)

2009-08-24T18:58:00.001+08:00

omg i'm so screwed. i just came b from class, wanted to work on my advert.

but my mind keeps telling me i need to do something. i want to do something.

and that thing is.

Left4Dead.

i can't believe how addicted i am now! was supposed to go cut hair w px later, but cos her fren's not home (we're letting her fren's mum o our hair), we decided to go another time. But when i thought it was still gonna be later today that we do our hair, the first thing i thought was, then what about L4D? there won't be time for L4D!

this is ridiculous! i need to detox L4D from my system. i think it's some ... SF.

2009-08-20T03:51:00.002+08:00

hahahahhaa yes i just completed L4D normal in 20 min!!!

hahaha. it's damn shiok to play normal after so many days of expert. like omg hahahahha so slack.

okay i am hopelessly addicted.

anyway my besties came over from nus ytd! smoked sheesha in hall, courtesy of desmond ngiam.

and then alson brought alcohol. and they bought lemon and salt and stuff. so we had proper tequila shots, kahlua was awesome, and basically learnt how sheesha works. hahha. and alot of random ppl joined in, so was kinda loud and noisy but super fun!!

then after all that, we 3 went to futsal court to chat, all the way til 8 am. hahaha

i'm so glad u guys came over! kind of pulled me out of my rut again. just when i was feeling -_- again we had awesome chats and talks and basically i got a new perspective and i'm so much happier!!!

=D it's so true. reliance shouldn't be factored in.

2009-08-14T09:09:00.002+08:00

i am very sad okay. just woke up at freakin 8.30 am after i played L4D til 4.30 am, cos i thought i had COM429 tutorial.

then at about 9 am after i had put on my awesome Sephora eyeliner (it reali doesn't come off. Even after bathing), i suddenly realised, eh. COM429 TUTORIAL.

and i started wondering if i had tutorial cos it's the first wk and there's never tuorial in the first wk.

so i checked out the subjects registered list. and it listed, next to COM429, wk 1-13.

so i figured, okay, it says 1-13, so i prob have lessons today, maybe this tut is exceptional, starts on first wk.

but no. i smsed ppl and msned ppl and they told me it starts 2nd wk. ALL TUTS START 2nd WEEK. no matter wad.

-_-.

and i dun feel like going to slp in my eyeliner. or wasting my eyeliner by getting it off first. (not tt i could, no makeup remover in hall)

rahhhhhhh

2009-08-10T02:20:00.002+08:00

I LOVE LAYS!!

the sour cream and onion thingy.

on one hand, i'm like guzzling water like nobody's business to clear my sore throat, on the other hand, i can't resist stuffing my face w lays.

oh well. some things just can't be helped!

school's starting, and i'm like missing the holidays alr! done so many things i wanted to, had so much fun, can't help feeling nostalgic. =( shall like totally come up with an album of photos of my holiday memories.

=D

holidays 2009, u totally brought a smile to my face!!! this hols shall officially be termed Carrista.

cos that sounds like a fun babe! HAHAHHAHA.

buhbye Carrista!

2009-08-08T23:12:00.003+08:00

ahhhhh f***!!!!

i just bought awesome purple LA girl nail polish. like damn awesome okay! and i spilt it on my bedsheet?!?!?!

oh well, quite some left, should be glad. but seriously, purple on my orange bedsheet is NOT a good combi!

and tadah! i went to get my belly pierced today w nessie.

today wasn't exactly awesome, cos my alr weeklong diarroea continued, and i diarroead like 6 times today despite the tcm i took (freaking bitter OMG) and the immodium i bought from watsons. RAH.

and i woke up with a swelling right eye full of eyeshit, cos an eyelash dropped into my eye during the night and like shit accumulated around it and stuff. it's still red =(

and i freaked out watching nessie pierce (i SOOO should have gone first), but luckily i went thru w it, and am SUPER HAPPY about my piercing!!!

so totally photoshopped, cos my belly was damn white. i tried to make it look tanned, but...=( sylvie's the belly ring on the left. haha yes i named my piercing! always wanted to be called sylvie, but since my name is just boring "yiting", i shall give my rather silvery piercing the honour!!!

yay yay!!!

2009-08-06T00:23:00.004+08:00

wheeeeee!!! many many fun stuff has happened, and hall camp is awesome!!!!!!
by awesome i meant bloody lots of cute guys.
and hahaha. celebrated kong's bday w the dance ppl! happy bday!!! old alr!!!! and i am damn shagged, half aslp now, so i shall post pics next time.

and today i didn't know exactly how to react. at least i've chilled, as compared to how i was feeling then, so i'm kinda glad i didn't publish that angsty post.

but still, i must say this: DON'T FREAKING BRING A PERSON DOWN JUST COS U FEEL LIKE IT.

in other words, STOP INSULTING ME!!!! everyone has their insecurities and it does NOT help when u're told that your eyes look weird, you're fat, you look like u're balding, your forehead v high and ugly, u're slutty, your eyes look like it's been punched, you're uglier than everyone else, you're not pretty enough hence u've to try harder than everyone else, you're flat faced, etc.

SO WHAT. FRIGGING LOOK AT URSELVES FIRST LA. think u're so perfect meh!?

i kind of suspect i may be being petty, but still. i may be guyish, unglam, loud etc, but that does NOT mean i've no feelings. i'm still a girl, and it's plain ungentlemanly/insensitive to say those stuff. there was a period of time when i was freaking depressed about myself thanks to those messages i can never forget, and those freaked up comments did NOT help with my feelings of inadequacy.

sometimes i feel like blowing up, but it would feel like i'm overreacting.

and it's not like i can't take jokes up to a certain extent. like some ppl may tease me, say i'm fat, lol that kinda thing, and i don't mind at all and find it funny cos their attitude is totally joking, teasing, and somehow i don't know why, it just doesn't feel like a real insult.

but when some ppl say it, in THAT TONE OF VOICE, it just gets to me. the words may be the same, but it's just DIFFERENT.

okay this is damn random, i'm alr past all those and life is seriously good now, i feel so much happier, like i've started truly living again.

but just suddenly thought of all that pent up anger when i was deleting drafts, plus it's the middle of the night, hence all these emo shit.

oh well, camp tml!! =D

2009-07-27T19:15:00.006+08:00

YOU'LL NEVER WALK ALONE. =D

finally got to see my beloved liverpool!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

it's indescribable, the feelings i had, looking at the team i've been supporting and loving for 9 years IN THE FLESH.

seeing carragher, alonso, torres, mascherano, riera, insua, benayoun, kuyt and co., playing beautiful soccer RIGHT THERE. in front of me. ON A PITCH IN SINGAPORE, IN FRONT OF ME.

and the rush of adrenaline, from being THERE, right there, in the moment, as they scored, and the bittersweet sadness coursing through my veins when the entire stadium hollered the liverpool anthem, you'll never walk alone, with passion and wholeheartedly, just before they left the pitch.

thank you god, cos life is beautiful.

the only missing ingredient to a perfect experience that day was gerrard.

but nvm, one day i'll travel to england to watch him in all his glory.

thanks liverpool, for fulfilling all your fans' wishes. other than gerrard's absence.

and alonso, mascherano, as the entire stadium begged and chanted, DON'T GO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

me with the hair i dyed red (w yy's help =D) for the occasion =P

went there super early, at 11 am, to queue, get breakfast. but there was so much to see, to do, to photograph, that 7pm came in no time.

the peeps there!

we wanted to steal this cardboard. but. oh well. didn't.

look at the sea of red man.. the feeling was awesome! it was like everywhere in the vicinity of kallang we walked, we saw red. liverpudlians in liverpool jerseys, polos, shirts, etc.

everywhere we walked were people wearing jerseys that made me happy. everywhere was liverpool. =)

oh and i took this pic w pixie through the binoculars. thank god for them.

<333333333333333333333

this was the final score. oh well, singapore played reali well tho. as in i was sincerely surprised by singapore's skills. despite the score, they really showed skills and soccer prowess at a level i never expected from them. i may actually start following s league now. go alam shah and indra! plus AGUUUUU~~~ (*body waves*)

LIVERPOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL, I CHOOSE YOU!!!!

When you walk through a storm

Hold your head up high

And don't be afraid of the dark

At the end of the storm

There's a golden sky

And the sweet silver song of a lark

Walk on...

Through the wind...

Walk on...

Through the rain

Tho' your dreams be tossed and blown...

Walk on...

With hope...in your heart...

And you'll never walk alone...

You'll never walk alone...

Alone...

You'll Never Walk Alone....

2009-07-25T03:20:00.005+08:00

just got b from l4ding w my fren! this time, we completed the game, and it was hilarious cos we were actually, for once, the non-noobs in the game! the other dudes in the game weren't tt bad, but the thing is, my fren's life was halved by one of the guys friendly firing, and my life was kinda snuffed out by the same guy, and that scene repeated MANY TIMES. lol.

anw, i'm gonna take a huge risk for liverpool..

cos i'm gonna dye my hair red in honour of their visit, and it's only been 8 days since i rebonded my hair!

less actually. i am SUPER HOPING my hair doesn't curl up and die, and that my alr SUPER DRY ends can take the blow.

haha i know the smart thing would be to wait to dye my hair, or just highlight it, but i really, really want to attend the reds' match w red hair!

HAHAHHA. -_- oh well, if it dies, i'll just be heartbroken that my now presentable hair would have to regress to the previous stage of hidden-by-cap-for-eternity. HAI.

anyway went butter fac w lisan!! haha was wearing my new fav dress (except now i like another f21's one more).
and from it being just me...

and lisan...

we met up wit nessie and jac cos they were gonna club there too...

then turns out, ALOT OF PPL were there...

haha. so basically i think butterfac is always flooded with cs ppl. saw a whole other group of cs ppl too!

and tml's timbreing session w ade and shannen. if i'm wearing a cap then, ade u know why okay!!!

tho i reali hope my hair goes well. cos... other than me loving my hair, i also want to wear the f21 dress. and i dun think it goes well with a cap. HAHAHHA.

omg. i'm reali becoming more and more bimbotic. i need to self-reflect and stuff man.

2009-07-22T00:56:00.002+08:00

had my fill of L4D @ katong today! we totally blew it tho. omg somehow just couldn't even complete advanced today. stupid louis. bill's the best.

haha. watching koishite akuma, this japanese vampire drama. about this vamp in a high school, supposedly hot and with attractive powers that draws all females to him. he came to the human world to hunt and grow his fangs, after he sucks blood. proof of being a vamp or something b4 he can return to his vamp world.

but this dude is one of the rare kinds who can only suck the blood of a fated woman.

sounds familiar? LOL it did to me! sounds like twilight remixed, jap version.

kinda like the show so far, except the main lead is this guy who's admittedly pretty, but too much 0f a nancyboy to be truly convincing and hot. he basically sulks all the time and acts like a spoilt brat, that's all. he's supposed eerie coolness and aura of mystery tanks. the actor CAN'T ACT. -_- FAIL.

it's just that he's still kinda cute, plus the plot's interesting, and hot babes are aplenty in the show, so even minus his FAILLLLLL acting, it's still slightly addictive! can't wait for the subbed episode 2! wish my jap were better man.

2009-07-21T01:03:00.003+08:00

hahaa went sentosa with yayan today!!! reali had alot of fun having our PPPPPPM talk, and our frenship reali up one level man! plus the shag volleyballing, the icecream shakes, the soaking in the sea...back to the PPPPM talk, hahahaha. kinda relieved to have it all out, and glad to have that kinda trust! =P love ya babe!!!

and cos i'm lazy to arrange the pics in order, those pics are at the b!!

oh and these are pics of me and jasmine at kim gary @ vivo, after we FINALLY met up after so long!!! i reali missed that girl man!!!

and the awesome crazy babe gave me this super belated xmas prezzie!!! hoho it was AWESOME. had everything i wanted in it, from the fox top i wanted, the eyeliner i wanted, to the hot pink nail polish. HOHO.

oh and RIP to my diet. it lasted 3 hours after the icecream shake w yayan. and ended with kim gary's. all 3 dishes.

w yayan!!!! LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEE. hahaha .

and me zilianing cos i'm reali super pleased w my rebonded hair. it's awesome waking up and alr having neat hair without bothering!

2009-07-18T23:52:00.015+08:00

omg it's ridiculous!!!

i left my phone at li en's house, and since she's in korea alr, i took the bus to her house, and stopped one stop too early, then walked round trying to find the main entrance. then i gave up and climbed over the fence, then climbed over the wall and got inside the condo.

then found her house, knocked for damn long, no one answered. so i rounded to the back, entered thru her backgate, and knocked on the glass doors. still no one answered.

and there my phone was, smiling at me a few inches away, but barred from me by a locked glass door.

so i just kept knocking, and just as i was giving up, li en's mum appeared! turns out she was on her way out. and so she gave me a lift home after i was reunited w my phone.

then today, i couldn't find my wallet, thought i had dropped it when clmibing over the fence and the wall to li en's house. or left it on the car.

but it wasn't there, and i had a major argument w my mum, ended up at kallang mrt station penniless and booted from the car.

so i didn't go for work, and walked home from kallang, following the train tracks.

and i got lost in marine terrace, but somehow got home after a long detour.

and surprise, surprise. my wallet was in my cupboard.-__________________-

RAH.

so anyway, li en's off in korea for 5months! =( will really miss her man. we went to the airport to send her off in the morning after a sleepless night spent talking and eating macs.

see our fan club-like shirts!!

and this was us doing up the survival kit for her, complete w a diary in which we BHBedly wrote the first and last entry for her. something to do w missing us like hell, getting presents for us, and how gorgeous we are. LOL.

haha and this was us in the toilet, after we snuck away to change into our surprise tees. it's actually the i <3>

I will miss the 4 of us!!! come b soon lien!

awww.

her and her family.

then went straight from airport to woodlands causeway point after a sleepless night for ten hours of work. LOL.

oh and went mount k! so anyway after i saw other's bags, i felt scared. like why other ppl's bags so big one?! see the comparison below. left is px's bag, right is mine.

turns out everyone was smart enough to pack enough clothes. unlike me -_-

anyway this pic i think is after we reached the rest point before climbing the final part of mount k, at labban ratta. i was trying to dry my shoes by the stove. and ended up melting part of it -_-

there goes my newly bought 89 bucks new balance. bought it right b4 the trip somemore.

and me, being uber scared of the cold, all bundled up to sleep under double layers of quilt at night. damn loser la. when other ppl slept in tee shirts i had to borrow 3 jackets before i could fall asleep at the previous rest place.

and me, being all hopeful about reaching the summit. at first. -_-

haha. we started climbing into a waterfall we saw at the base of mount k, and climbed over slippery rocks, desperately trying to avoid slipping and falling into the ice cold running water, and finally got to this nice point in the falls.

shit i just accidentally deleted a group picture of us posing on the same rock. damn.

midway thru the climb, we came to some bridge thing that wobbled alot haha.

oh and we were trying to do jump shots !

and fooling around in the sleep quarters. HAHAHA. and that's eunice, my dhs junior in nus now, not some terrorist la LOL.

we were reali in the midst of the clouds!

and my favourite dish of the whole trip. some omelette with cheese and tomatoes and veggie thing. queued and waited famn long for it la.

whee! i remember the feeling i had looking down at that scene.

oh and went jet skiing!!! after. damn shiok okay. and my ribs stop hurting, so it was all awesome! MUST TRY. haha the throwing ppl and urself off the bike feeling v shiok.

and us during snorkelling!!! at some random island. mamutik? or ? i forgot. haha. all of us were "crowned" by seaweed. just for the heck of it.

oh and our white water rafting post mount k!!! this was when we were on a trolley being pushed along the rails canoeing style by the guides. used to be a train track but it was too close to the edge and 2 ppl died during a landslide so they stopped the use of trains. and got trolleys. LOL

it's shiok to be going at 40 km/hour on these trolleys.

rafting was madness la. spent most of the time in the water due to the crazy guides always throwing me overboard. and tackling other ppl into the water hahahahaha. super fun. plus the rapids were thrilling!!

and that's us taupoking eugene. LOL. who got swept away by a current and scarily slammed against rocks til his entire trousers were torn apart. but miraculously unhurt otherwise.

and that's us w our super fun guide! he's awesome la.

n we saw wild boars wondering serenely round sandy beaches, looking like they belonged there, at some island. i think mamutik. oh so the snorkelling island was sapi i think.

and a komodo freaking dragon!!! COOL SHIT OKAY.

and the mad insung teasing it. those things move FAST.

yea so basically the trip was a blast, and i hope our travel gang conquers more mountains and crosses more oceans!!!

trallala

2009-07-17T19:04:00.002+08:00

been nuahing around since the mt k trip, cos my muscles' been screaming in protest everytime i move.

hahaha basically the trip was freaking awesome, the only regret being that i din go to the summit cos it rained and the guides said that due to bad weather , only ppl with waterproof gloves and stuff could climb. Or the gloves would be frozen solid or something. so only px and eugene (who had waterproof gloves) made it to the top! awesomely fit ppl. i was pretty relieved actually, cos i was feeling under the weather, what with my hacking cough and super low tolerance of the cold and lack of clothing. NOW i know why everyone's backpack was so huge compared to mine.

anyway lotsa nice pics, but in other ppl's cameras, and i'm too lazy to upload pics from mine.

but basically got some of the need for something thrilling to do this hols out of my system, cos other than the mt climbing, we also went whitewater rafting, snorkeling, and i had my first try at jet skiing!!!

went crazy during the whitewater rafting, cos our guide was super fun, and the hours were spent not just being thrilled by the rapids, but also by us jumping onto each other's raft and throwing the other team members down, tackling the guides into the water, being tackled/pulled from behind into the water, and backflipping into the water just for the sake of it.

then after being thrown into the water dozens of times by 3 different guides, we nuahed all the way back to the hotel.

oh hahaha the jet skiing was super shiok, went with the mad eugene, so basically spent half and hour trying to throw each other off the bike. and succeeding plenty of times.

there was once i flew off the bike so violently i bruised my ribs slamming into the water.

LOL. but the exp was damn shiok, i wanna buy a jet ski!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ah hem.

ya. i miss the feeling of having nothing pressing going on during the trip, just laughing my head off and doing exciting and fun stuff with no worries in the world. i reali love travelling! wish i could be a travel writer or something.

and now, it's foc, which i'm semi dreading for reasons.

and sch! omg. =(

plus i'm super tempted to type something here but i think it'll be offensive so i shall wait til i can't take ______ _______ anymore then i'll let them have it.

2009-07-10T00:21:00.002+08:00

omg i'm going mount kinabalu in about 8 hours time! in 7 hours or less i'll be at the budget terminal!!!!

hahahhaa.

today was super stressful. like morning til 5 pm was the making of our special surprise for _____, and then 5 was hahaha chillax dinner and l4d and pool w my fren then at night met kong to get the goretex jacket. THANKS FOR THAT AND THE ZIPLOCK BAGS! (yes the ones i bought reali were way too tiny to fit much in).

just got home, started packing, i'm more or less down. it's 12:23 am, and i'm supposed to be at the airport by 7 am.

STRESS MUCH?!

but somehow i dun feel like slping yet! OMG LA.

my faithful pink backpack is stuffed to the max, i feel so bad cos i dun think i'm supposed to be using such a gorgeous pink bag for such purposes, but i dun have the haversack mountain climbing kinda backpack, plus the pink backpack looks and feels pretty sturdy, and it endured the thailand trip well, so ... PLEASE LET IT ENDURE THE MOUNTAIN TRIP WELL AND COME HOME FINE!

of course, please let MEEEEE endure the mountain trip well and come home safe and sound!!!

haha and i stupidly went to get sorethroat today. I already felt a possible sore throat coming up, still went to eat super SUPER spicy Phad Thai Glass Noodles, then Anderson's Icecream. -_- then soft drinks. RAH.

hahaha. okay i am reali stressed. i shall go check thru my stuff again and sleeep!!!!

WISH ME LUCK!!!

hahaaha

2009-07-08T19:57:00.015+08:00

haha we went to batam to celebrate yayan's 21st! and it KIND OF remained a surprise til.... well a few minutes before boarding the ferry, but still, yay!!

haha yayan believed us when we said we were going to stay at a campsite with tents!? LOL. til the harris resort guy appeared. HAHAHHA.

we nuahed around, then went swimming, more like lazing around in the pool actually.

and i have to say, most of the fun was had in our hotel room! hahaha. taupoking each other, exchanging dresses, chatting, laughing, going crazy. =P

then we headed to the spa! haha. peixun and i were both wearing cotton on dresses when we shared a hut! the spa was awesome, with like lil huts for us to share, 2 in each, and we brought our friendship to "a whole new level", when we shared the experience of hot stones massage, skin scrubbing, aromatherapy, and a jaccuzzi =P

it feels super vulnerable to be showering etc in here, cos we can see outside pretty clearly, but thankfully we experimented looking in from the outside and the inside is pretty much totally safe from the outside gaze.

then we went to have seafood, or rather, they went to have seafood, while i ordered vegetarian fried rice and ate eggs and kangkong belacan. the egg was aweseome!

and at night, we toasted to yayan's 21st, w champagne glasses compliments of px and kt.

and tadah! happy bday yayan!!!! hahaha our surprise was kinda unsurprising, when she saw the candles from the doorway. hahaha.

and our slumber party began! =D

oh and this is a pic of us with our mouths full of stolen cookies. sigh, that peixun =P

and us in our dresscode of the trip: sundresses! =D

hahaha basically a whole lot of fun, felt like a tai tai on the trip, with our sundresses and shades, champagne glasses and wine, spa and the superb service of the staff there!

it's like, they are sincerely glad to be there, and greeted us happily, cheerily, whenever they saw us, brought us cold towels and complimentary honeydew drinks, let us borro nail polish for manicures since the manicurist was out, offered to help us pond yayan (damn we reali should've), gave us chips and sauce and glasses of water when we were just waiting for a takeaway order!

yes haha i forgot about these:

manicures! courtesy of yayan and peixun. yayan rawks at putting on the base, while peixun's dotted designs are cute!

haha reali enjoyed our late night talk, ranging from cubism, art, to architecture, to babahouse, to horror stories, to freak accidents, to psychology.... lollll.

love u guys!!! =D

2009-07-05T15:28:00.005+08:00

OH YES! i saw XYZ again!!! WWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

i'm happy!

haha i was too lazy to go out today, sorry girls! but yea our online meeting is coming to fruition! hahaha

i'm apt to toss out pompous, delightful flowery language nowadays, (or rather, just today) and i think it's cos i've been cooped up in my room, reading book after book. i just discovered a hidden treasure of UNread books in my room! and i thought i'd been thru every book twice.

hence, i've been happily snuggled up in bed, reading book after book, swaddled in blankets and
pillows and what not. in a comfy airconditioned state.

so basically i've been brainwashed by book after book of brave women in their late twenties overcoming life's obstacles and sending back whatever setback life throws at them with agile backhands, to acheiving success in life and love.

so now, i'm kinda prone to feeling like i'm meant for bigger things, then say, admin work in an office.

or promoting phones for the rest of my life.

it's too bad that i can't figure out just what exactly, do i want from life!

and while i was pondering all these, i realised that... TML IS ____________ TRIP!!!

and i haven't packed or anything, simply cos i keep thinking i just need about half an hour to pack. which is true, i guess, but i can't help feeling helpless about my lack of motivation to pull myself out of bed and start packing, or doing ANYTHING.

rahhhh.

anyway, ytd was lisan's 21st party! and today's her bday!!! LOVE YA GIRL! HAPPY BIRHTDAY AND CONGRATS ON BEING OLDER THAN ME! for now.

the bday girl w her bf!
the gorgeous cake! =P

and 34/05!!! aww i kinda missed u guys.

the card for lisan! hahahaha

and me with my girlfriend, the pretty pretty babe... =D

took alot of camwhoring shots, but i'm kinda lazy to post them up here. haha. blue skies and all that. fb is awesome!

sooooo i shall concentrate on packing for now.

plus plus i heard got more dunmanians coming ntu! one even to mass comm and 2 to hall 2 and hazel is coming masscomm! haha.

and i heard from cedric that it seemed as if all the dunmanians he spoke to din like mass comm. HAHAHHA. it's probably a dunmanian thing. LOVE DUNMANIANS!

2009-07-04T03:23:00.002+08:00

i am boreddd.

it's 3.23am and i'm awake cos i slept til 12 am. lol. i woke at 3 pm, ate, read a book, and promptly fell aslp.

and i dunno if i should sleep soon, afraid i'll miss tml's job trg. plus lisan's bday party!

mismatched colours. lol. luckily i've a dozen multicolored clothing, so it should be easy to mismatch stuff. purple top blue skirt maybe LOL.

i've been watching girls out loud online, and i've jsut finished the season. i have nothing to do now!

i shall. i shall... i dunno. read up on stuff. i'm running out of books to read.

i think i shall open a bookstore in future. or a library-cafe. like, i dunno, pay 10 for 2 hours in a cafe with a selection of books and refreshments.

hahahahhaa. or like. rent a book and can read at our awesome cafe. gonna be cosy, olden day styled.

or something. then i can have access to tonnes of books, and get paid for that!

hohoho. idea la!

okay i'm really bored. i'll go read up on such cafes.

2009-07-03T03:14:00.009+08:00

AAHHHHHH i'm SOOOOOOOO tired!!!

just came back from the lousiest paying, most gruelling job in my life thus far.

12 hours of toil, and all i get is a miserable 60 bucks!? PLUS THE SHITTY UNIFORM

i could get that amount in like 6 hours doing promoting!!!! RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

but oh well. i went there for the exp, and it WAS pretty awesome.

i mean, it's not everyday that i get to see and serve the president and the entire cabinet.

and the extravagant decorations!!! about 99 roses on a tall stand and 40 roses bushes, all on EACH table. so that's like 139 x 30 or so tables!!!

and all those lovely flowers, gone to waste, strewn about in neglect after just a few hours of glory.

sigh..

but i put those flowers to good use!!! =P 2 of them only tho =( my fren at work was hilarious. she put one in her hair and took a whole bunch home!

haha i stuck two in my hair!!!

yes v bo liao and i wish they were sunflowers or lilacs but still. SO MANY ROSES! OMGGGGG.

oh and i went swimming!!! haha finally had the motivation. was thinking should call lisan to swim w me for motivation when she messaged me about the same thing! =P

we were both red from the sauna. ahahaa. omg la. we were stopped by security after coming out of the pool. he asked if we were residents.

i lied that i was, then he asked us to sign out. i mumbled something like after we're out. then we went to the sauna in the toilet, and about 15 min later, we snuck out, saw him facing another direction, and stealthily crept away!!!

LOLLL.

why can't neptune court have a gdamn swimming pool?! waad kinda condo is this man!!!!

2009-06-30T23:47:00.003+08:00

hahaha. i am kind of feeling stupid for doing the waitressing for the president's birthday thingy.

cos afterall the pay is shitty la. haha.

but i'm also kinda excited! i mean, i will get to see the president! and the cabinet ppl! haha.

just wish the pay was higher.

and i'm going to swimmmm tml!!!! with long time no see lisan! finally can tan a lil.

and dhika, u suck!!! =P

ANDDDD i need to add this!!! i LOVE TORRES!!! omg i din know he was so committed to liverpool! i mean, i thought it was just benitez that brought him here, but recently, not only has he expressed his loyalty to liverpool (by signing on again), he has also been stressing on the importance of keeping our best players like mascherano and alonso etc. He's actually worried that Liverpool may lose them, and saying stuff like Liverpool has a great chance, he wants to win trophies with liverpool, we need to keep our best players etc!!!

HAHHHAHAHA I AM SUPER HAPPY!!!!!! looks like he's in no danger of leaving anytime soon!!!! he's officially my no.2 now!!! (gerrard's ALWAYS first)

ALONSO AND MASCHERANO, DON'T YOU GUYS DARE LEAVE!!!!

2009-06-29T23:47:00.007+08:00

Haha i am super happy!!!
and i went to watch transformers II with yayan! haha pre-movie we finally had a long overdue HTHT. <333>
this thing is huge!

haha. so anyway today finally met up with nessie after a long time. had a nice time chilling out at siglap starbucks, finally there not to study but just to talk, chill, and catch up!

and b4 that, i did a wayyyy stupid thing.

LOL. i actually planned to walk to starbucks, but somehow or another, i thought it was behind mandarin gardens. i guess i could always walk back from there without problem cos neptune court and mandarin gardens are very visible and tall structures.

cos when trying to walk there, i just walked by mandarin gardens. and after i kept walking, for quite a long time, i realised....

neptune court was in front of me again -_- i had walked one whole round aroud mandarin gardens!!!

i felt DAMN stupid when, by the third side of mandarin gardens i had walked by, i realised what i'd done. so i just took a cab there-_-

and i should start getting ready for the ____ trip and the mountain climbing! kind of realised i don't really have all the equipment needed. hai.

lazyyy! just feel like nuahing all day, reading books, lazing around, etc. haha. kind of unhealthy lifestyle, i know, but the feeling is just shiok.

=D shall try to exercise more!

2009-06-29T01:25:00.000+08:00

ijust got back from watching Transformers II, and HOLY CRAP, Megan Fox is inhumanly hot.

how can ANY human being stand being so hot?! i mean, what the hell does she think when she stares into the mirror and sees herself?

How does she pry herself away from the mirror everyday?

How does ANYONE get used to being so drop-dead gorgeous?!

What runs thru her head when she's being so freaking hot?!?!

She's a goddess. That's got to be the answer.

2009-06-27T15:02:00.030+08:00

Haha i finally changed my blogskin! this is quite kiddish, but ever since diving, i've been loving the underwater world more! so, yea, this skin really puts a smile on my face every time i see it.

hahaha. and i got to meet Ray Hudson today!!!!

that's all i should probably say for now.

*fingers crossed*

i really wan the job! online tv haha. the awesome ex epl player i met! and ex epl referee!

2009-06-27T00:28:00.042+08:00

i'd really hate it if people were to misunderstand things.

I wonder how to tell someone u're upset without appearing petty or blighting relations. to let them know they've gone too far.

Everyone has their own secrets. and mine weighs me down more than you know

And i've enough insecurities. No need to add on to them.

2009-06-24T13:46:00.006+08:00

my hectic thur to monday consec 5 days of working is finally over, and i'm enjoying the sensation of waking up only to realise i could afford to sleep later, and nuahing around the house, resting my poor aching legs. kinda reali like my colleagues, hope there's another deployment soon, cos i reali nd the money + it'd be great to see them again.

I've been stuffing my face with food, so i'm going to blog now to distract myself.

anyway, the ______ ytd was a pain in the head. literally. got a splitting headache and got knocked out til night time. just took ______again, hope the side effects won't be as bad this time.

and anyways again, i tried straightening my fringe for my jobs, and the results are a less horrifying hairstyle,

so i may just go rebond my hair, and maybe dye it red or auburn. =D lalala.

p.s. Lime with sprite is awesome! i squeezed our homegrown limes into the sprite, and it tastes AWESOME. if only we can upload tastes onto blogs and facebooks. damn.

2009-06-24T00:42:00.002+08:00

Ohh mannn.

after so long, i actually broke my resolution not to shop. after months without shopping (with the exception of getting shoes cos mine fell apart), i bought....

a liverpool singlet.

HAHAHA. it's the NUM one, and i think it looks kinda sorta awesome! so oh well, at least it was worth it.

But it DOES mean i'm -60 in my debts/earnings balance.

sighh.

on the upside, i went to the _____ and i got ______ which is supposed to help. it takes about 3 weeks b4 any effects are seen, so... YAY. hope it works.

and

I FORGOT TO REGISTER FOR MY CORES. i am so screwed. calling up the sch tml to see if there's anything i can do.

shit if i drop out cos of this.......

RAHHHH

2009-06-19T00:51:00.003+08:00

Haha! i'm in a good mood!!

from being jobless, all of a sudden, within a space of 10 min, i had 2 job offers!

first, michelle called to get me to work thur fri sat sun for sony ericsson, and now it's extended to monday. and it's 92/day!

then the heritage fest girl called to ask me to work for 2 days. and then there's the nus job i dunno what it is!

and i've work at funan next wkend.

YAY.

i calculated.

dive trip - 440
mountain climbing + whitewater rafting - 540
yayan's secret trip to _____ - XXX
rebonding - 100

so it's 1080 + XXX

and after these jobs, provided i don't spoil/lose a demo phone or screw anything up, i'd have 700+.

so, if i just save up on my allowance, i'll be able to be debt free and afford those!!!

HOHOHOHO

it's a great weight off my mind.

but ppl, if u still have awesome lobang, PLEASE INTRO!

p.s. i'll be working at vivo til mon, do come visit me for lunch breaks!

p.p.s. woo peixun!! i love u! thanks for that long talk we had during aur. =D it reali changed my perspective alot! these few days are the happiest, lightest i've been in a long while! =D and to u besties, I LOVE YOU GUYS FOR ALWAYS BEING THERE, FOREVER!!!! may we look back on us when we're 100 and have nothing but fond memoriessss =D

2009-06-16T12:27:00.010+08:00

I'm backk!!! From diving!!! haha it was awesome. I loved almost every minute of it. (I'll come to the almost part at the end.) The beautiful island, the clear waters, the serenity, the breath-taking underwater views... I LOVE DIVING AND QUAINT ISLANDS. dayang was beautiful too, almost an exact replica of Pulau Aur. BUT. DO NOT GO TO AUR FOR DIVING. GO DAYANG OR SOMETHING. I THOUGHT I WAS GOING TO DROWN AT ONE POINT. nothing against the island of course, just the operator. but i'll get to that. =P

so anyway, we arrived at pulau aur at night. we were mesmerised by the ocean, which looked intimidating and powerful in the blackness of the night, yet somehow still managing to retain its beauty. Pixie, awesome as she is, couldn't do it justice:

it was reali chioer than the photo shows.

After hours of driving and 4 hours on the boat, we arrived!!! this was how the place looked in the dead of the night:

and this was our cosy lil sleeping quarters! comfy, with aircon...(nothing dayang doesn't have)

on the first night, after the damn night dive (RAH. I WILL WHINE ON AND ON ABOUT THAT LATER), peixun and i went out to the bridge to lie down under the gorgeous night sky. It felt great to HTHT til 3am, under a sky speckled with dozens and dozens of stars. it was...beautiful (hahaha this word is now officially a code).
this is how the bridge looks like in the morning:

GORGEOUS! right? and we trudged over this bridge dozens of time during our stay.

We did 4 dives the first day, and 2 the next. I've to say, the 2 last dives were the best. I took advanced diving just so i could see more of the underwater world, and i sure did! at 12 m below the sea, i saw awesome schools of fishes, lots of heartstopping beauty. But at 25 m below the sea, i finally got to sea REALLLLLLLLLYYY awesome corals!!! too bad we didn't have underwater cameras with us, cos the world beneath is really, really...indescribably (somehow i think i spelt that wrong) beautiful. Maybe it's cos it'sonly my 2nd time diving, i'm inexp, etc, but i was seriously spellbound by the beauty of it all. The feeling was ... great. I can't really put it into words.

All that way below the sea, all i could hear was my own breathing. It was peaceful, serene, and i was enveloped in water. gazing at multi-coloured fishes, corals filled with life... all around me were the hundreds of species of fishes and underwater life. the colors, the vibrancy, it all got to me. i remember thinking, in the serenity and beauty of the moment, how wonderful it would be if i could stay there forever. Just submerged in the water, watching schools of fishes of all colours and shapes swim peacefully by, gazing at corals with anemones waving in the water, fishes darting in and out of the tentacles.... sighh. before the superstitious part in me interrupted my train of thought with "choi. i don't want to die here. and tt's the only way i can stay here forever". -______________-

but yea. it was great. i loved it. i love diving! haha. despite all the troublesome factors like the shitload of work we had to do, the preparations, the bulky equipment (and faulty!!! i'll get to that), it was all worth it. The bruises i have on my hips from the weights on the weight belt, and the oxygen tank pressing on my back, all worth it.

maybe for ppl who dive all the time, it'd be pretty normal to them, but the underwater world really fascinated me.

this was the island in the morning, low tide. rocky beaches are actually pretty awesome too! we were exploring the beach, turning over rocks and poking around. saw lotsa awesome stuff, like crabs, little baby crabs crawling all over, sea slugs, shells, rock pools, fishes...but i'm too lazy to upload all the pictures! blogger keeps jamming =(

a crab!!!! probably laying eggs. haha damn alot of baby crabs around, once u bother to notice.

a rock pool!!! =) beautifully clear, with tiny fishes swimming around.

haha.....

gorgeous right!!! too bad i couldn't capture the island in totality, with the bridge and the sea and the coconut trees and all.

This is me coming up from a great dive!!!

and this is one of my favourite pics!!! haha we went snorkeling during a dive break, and just skimmed the surfaces, floating around without the bulky equipment and just our snorkels. niceeeeeee. even in shallow waters the corals and fishes were kawaii ne and ki rei! see how clear the waters are?

me sitting at the side of the boat!!! haha tho the boatmen were warning us that it's dangerous =X

us on the boat!!! in the dive gear (torn and sizes too big, but i'll complain later)

and i'm sick of uploading pics, so here's one of us on our last walk back to the jetty at the end of the trip!!!

so now that i've reminisced on all the awesome parts, i am going to start the bitching.

i came the closest to drowning that i've ever come.

I FREAKING HATE THE OPERATOR AT PULAU AUR!

last year, during basic dive, all i had to complain about the equipment were stupid, insignificant things like, " the dive suits are faded", "the masks are smelly"

this year, here's the incomplete list:

1) The dive suits are torn. as in, A HUGE BIG HOLE at the waist and stretched and tattered parts all across the side.

2) They lack dive suits. Peixun had to wear one that was sizes too big, and i couldn't change my torn dive suit for another, cos there WASN'T ANY OTHER MY SIZE.

3) The masks were tattered. my mask had the sides TIED ON because the straps broke or something i think. Or couldn't be adjusted properly. My snorkel wasn't bent like it should be. and it was pressing painfully against my face cos something was wrong with the straps. peixun's snorkel's mouthpiece had oreo bits in it. Many oreo bits. or at least it looked like oreo. at the teeth area what's more. and all the other masks were worse, so we stuck with what we've got.

4) They lack fins. Peixun and Li en had to use the strap on fins cos they din have any their sizes. AND. the bootie li en wore gave her blisters. BECAUSE IT WAS TORN AND HAD A HOLE.

5) The O rings are mostly screwed. they are the things that keep the oxy tanks airtight. n if they are spoilt, the oxy tank leaks. george doesn't replace them when they tear. he turns them around and puts them b in and considers the problem solved. -_-

6) THE BCDs leak. (BCDs are the lifejacket thingies that the oxy tanks are strapped on to) yes this is why i was struggling not to drown.

7) The main instructor sucks. so does his china janitor or whatever they call him.

8) We had one instructor for basic, advanced, and leisure groups. The advanced group didn't catch a whiff of the main instructor during training and diving. cos he assigned us to an assistant instructor. who was pretty good, but still???? i mean. ONE instructor?!?!?

9) Octopus( the spare regulator each diver has in case his/her buddy runs out of air, they can share air) doesn't work all the time.

this is probably gonna be melodramatic to experienced divers, but i'm an amateur, and it's my first taste of anything near drowning, so wth.

okay so on saturday night, me steph, the asst instructor, another asst instructor/divemaster and a leisure diver went out for our night dive. at first, when i went into the pitch darkness, i was pleasantly surprised by the warmth of the wate, in contrast to the freezing night air.

there was going to be a storm when we went down, so the water was friggin choppy. so i inflated my BCD and swam out with the rest, w more effort than usual. then i got hit by a particularly large wave, and i struggled to stay afloat. i still didn't realise why i had so much difficulty staying afloat. i dropped my torch, and i was pretty freaked. it was pitch dark, the water was throwing me about, i had no torch, i had to fight to stay afloat. then another wave hit me, and i went under. I expected to surface again, due to the BCD, so i blew into the snorkel to clear the water, and breathed in. BUT i breathed in only water. and i suddenly realised i was already a few feet underwater. and i continued sinking til i was many feet below the surface.

and it was all because my BCD leaks!!! i had alr noticed it in the day, and the main instructor, george, had brushed it off and said it's a small problem. so during the day, while floating around, i just kept repeatedly re-inflating the damn thing whenever it deflated. but at night, in the struggle to swim against the current, i had forgotten to re-inflate the damn thing. and somehow, in the strong current, it had leaked quicker than it had in the day.

so when the wave hit me under, i did not surface again cos the damn thing was no longer inflated! luckily the mantra i kept repeating to myself thruout the whole dive trip, "stay calm. stay calm and all will be fine" whenever i was nervous, was still in my head, so i stayed calm and remembered. remembered that i had my regulator with me -_- so thank god for that, and i breathed thru that while struggling to the surface. i didn't dare to scream, cos i didn't want to take the regulator out of my mouth. luckily one of the asst coaches, li teng, noticed my bubbles (as he said later) swam to me and pulled me to shore. THANKS MAN!!! =D

so i was on shore, where george (WHO HADN'T JOINED US IN THE NIGHT DIVE DESPITE THE FACT THAT THE BASIC PEOPLE DIDN'T NEED HIM ANYMORE) and the stupid chinaman he employed to look after his equipment were, and we told them what happened. guess what was their reaction?

first, the chinaman: "mei shi de. xiao wen ti! lou yi dian, mei wen ti de!" (there's no problem, it's a small problem only. it's okay!) and then when we inflated the BCD to the max, when we couldn't press it in at all, and it was hard, and a few minutes later it was soft, flaccid, and we could press our fingers at least 3 cm into it, he said "it's okay! meiwen ti!" in chinese. I was fuming at this point, cos he refused to change BCD for me, and expected me to wear the same damn thing again for my next dive!!!????

then george came, we put in underwater, and a small stream of bubbles emerged from the tear in the BCD. and u know what he said?????

"This is small problem. The problem is not with this. It's with you" and he pointed to me!!!! I WAS REALLY FREAKING PISSED. i mean, so maybe a more experienced diver would've found no problem with it, but I AM AN AMATEUR! OF COURSE I HAD A PROBLEM WITH IT! duh????

then the china man kept saying stuff like how slowly it leaked, and li teng was patiently explaining to him that it leaked slowly in air, but in the water, when worn and squeezed tightly around me, squashed by the tank, and under water pressure, it was bound to leak faster. And that when he towed me b, the BCD deflated after he had helped me inflated, and it needed to be re-inflated a couple of times.

the two stupid asses still kept saying "it's okay, no problem!" and the china man repeated again, "mei wen ti de!"

i finally blew up and yelled, "bu shi ni cha dian si dang ran mei wen ti la! (u weren't the one who almost died, of course u'd say no problem!) F**ked up."

After that, george kinda changed his tune. said something like "oh, maybe we should still change this. afterall..." blah blah blah.

SERIOUSLY. first the irresponsibility of the shitty equipment, and then the careless dismissal when things go wrong!!!

for eg, we were going thru the drill of sharing oxygen when out of air. steph, my buddy,had checked her octopus on land, and it was fine.

so i motioned the out of air sign to her, removed my regulator from my mouth, and she passed me her octopus. i took it, purged it, and took a breath. AND NO AIR CAME OUT. I purged it, and tried to breathe again. STILL NO AIR. i had to hurriedly grab my regulator back and breathe from it.

then on the boat, when we told george what happened, he just said "probably got sand stuck in it" and shook it abit, soaked it abit, and then when it worked again, he dismissed it as fixed. HELLO?!?! it works on and off, and that's considered fixed?!?!?!

so YA I AM SUPER PISSED. then there was the question of it i would get my dive cert cos i din complete night dive. which was debatable cos it could be put down to their fault for shitty equipment. so guess wad i was told???

"it's not the night dive. it's that u were bad during drills."

HELLO?! there was not a SINGLE drill i couldn't do on the first time! i mean, the guy even clapped! okay so maybe he claps for everyone, but i reali couldn't remember a single drill i had to repeat. cos i clearly remember sucking at them during openwater, so i took every care not to repeat the mistakes. clearing flooded mask under water? done 1st time! clearing it twice with one breath? done 1st try! losing a mask, and wearing it back and clearing it? 1st time! retrieving regulator, first time! blah blah blah! then navigations?

we had to use a compass to swim 20 fin strokes in a direction, turn, swim, turn swim, and get back after the triangular route to the same spot. and then swim a square using the compass to the same spot. i managed to get back to the same spot, within one metre of the damn dive knife that was the marker! he afterward praised me and said my navigation skills were v gd.

and NOW HE TELLS ME I SUCKED, hence i may not get my dive cert cos of that? and that night diving was not a factor, jsut that i sucked?!

when i mentioned the above, he said, "oh those weren't a concern. it was that u can't control ur buoyancy."

okay, true, i kept floating to the surface when navigating, but otherwise, i don't remember floating to the surface! i mean, i probably sucked somewhat, but i couldn't help thinking he was finding excuses!

cos afterward he said "u could always come b next time to complete the night dive, then u'll get ur cert" or smthg like that. so, it WAS the night dive that mattered!

okay sorry man, the guy was actually v nice. and frenly, and all, but i was indignant.

then anyway next day, our dive went well, i took care to keep my buoyancy in check. took alot of care. so the dive went well, and oh well, anyway at the end he said the dives were decent, we may get our dive certs afterall.

RAH. thank god. imagine going thru all that and not getting the advanced cert. we were told we passed afterward, and if the stupid george doesn't gimme my cert i'd sue him til he refunded me in full.

i was debating on whether to tell my mum about it or not, cos i din want her to be reluctant about me diving and stuff like mountain climbing and all, but i still did! she kinda wants to sue them. oh. ya they're Leeway i think. george owns the resort and the shitty equipmt. he's nice, frenly, until it gets to safety and empathy. hahaha i remember someone commenting that he's like a robot.

so anyway, i shall quit whining, and remember the good parts.

haha the memories still bring a smile to my face. diving's awesome!!! just do it with Big Bubble Centre or something. AVOID LEEWAY. haha BBC was damn good.

2009-06-10T01:09:00.002+08:00

i wan a new blog add! i mean, my blog add is so.............duh?

i mean it's my name!

not like nickname, or loves, or anything!!!

haha i'm thinking maybe i should get an aerist.blogspot.com!! since i keep l4ding with that nick, keep play multiple sims characters with that name, and i've basically loved aeris from final fantasy for inexplicable reasons. i mean, she's hot, but so are tiffa, rinoa and other ff girls! dunno why i'm just drawn to her and her aeris' garden theme song. supra nice!!

haha so i reserved that blog add alr! in case i want it. hoho.

oh oh! i got the pc show job!!! after thinking i flopped the interview when the person asked me to pretend to promote something and her remarks were "no interaction at all. good try for first timer tho." and weeeeeeks passed without news! anyway she messaged today saying the clients shortlisted me!!!!

BUT. i just realised that my diving trip is this fri!!!!!! =( there goes good pay!!! but oh well, at least diving should be awesome!

haha our advanced group has.... 2 ppl!!! so we'll both get lotsa attention from the instructor. too bad px and lien are at basic, or it'd be so fn diving w them! oh well. at least we've the nights tgt =D

tml's pool session! decided to take up the optional refresher course cos i've forgotten alot of stuff about diving. kinda nervous and v excited!

but it's kinda weird too, cos i'm somehow just a wee bit reluctant to go, cos i've gotten so used to bingeing, nuahing, lazily getting fatter in the comfort of indoors, that going diving seems a lil...effortful. hahahaha. omg.

and i was looking forward to suntanning, but it's not allowed in the 12 hours post diving! cos apparently advanced course would have deeper diving and lotsa nitrogen will be accumulated in the body, hence going under the sun too much and exertion (hence heating up the bod) may result in like. weird stuff going on in the body. =( theeerrre goes my suntanning.

on the other hand, at least my dive suit is the full one! so i dun have that great a need to tan away the horrible tan lines that the shorty suits leave behind. seriously, that tanline is BAAAAAAD. reali looks like i'm wearing 2 pairs of shorts after changing into fbts.

okay. i reali can't distract myself from food anymore! it's freaking hard to control myself, to force myself to eat once every 2hours at most. it's driving me mad! kinda glad i'm seeing the _________ tml!

okay. i can't take it anymore. bsides, it's almost 2 hours!!! tata. food food foooooooood

2009-05-24T04:47:00.002+08:00

haha. oh well my overall gpa hasn't hit 4 yet, but i'm really happy with this semester's gpa! haha it's probably damn lousy to some ppl (dhi*ah hem*ka), but still... =P

so far i've 3.5, 4.11, 3.5, 4.32 for gpas, and my overall's 3.85.

still a long way to 4, and an even longer way to 4.5 (which i've given up on long ago. HAHAHHA).

but oh well!!!! at least my dreaded donut drawing gv11 din do too badly (A-!! =D) and i got my A for BS803! which is weird cos the sudden change to having multiple answers for each q killed me. but i guess everyone got killed too.

haha. all in all i'm VERY relieved, but still, looking at my overall gpa, it's depressing! I WAN TO AT LEAST REACH 4!!!!!!!!!!!!! =( =( only 4 sems left!!!! MUST GRAD WITH AT LEAST 4

2009-05-21T00:33:00.001+08:00

haha i am going crazy!

basically i just got home from 5 days of reading the twilight series, playing L4D (lesser than i would've liked), warcraft III, installing CS, etc.

mostly reading the twilight series. haha i can sense the long forgotten bookworm in me kicking in, cos i suddenly have this urge to go to the library and borrow a mountain of novels to dwell in.

and suddenly, bimbotic chick lit that used to interest me no longer does! i'm back to liking sci fi stuff like doctor Who, action stuff like Clive Cussler, and stuff belonging in the fantasy realm.

ah hem. so anyway i got home, and the 3 huge bags of clothes i'd brought out to the living room to don to the salvation army WERE BACK IN MY ROOM, INFILTRATING MY WARDROBE AGAIN.

i was flabberghasted, and was going to be slightly bitchy about it when my dad said "u brought so many clothes home from hall! i had a hard time helping u wash them. next time u wanna bring clothes home, pls stay around to wash them urself" or something along those lines.

that was when i was like... ?!?!?! OH SHIT. so basically i put him thru washing loads of clothes THAT I WAS GOING TO DON AWAY.

i feel bad. but at least the salvation army ppl ought to be pleased. freshly washed dons!

anyway so i thought i was being ruthless enough in throwing out old stuff, but after bags and bags, there're still intimidating stacks of stuff piled around.

i'm desperate, so i'm gonna execute this plan:

i will keep a certain number of items in each part of my room. for example, i would choose top ten items to keep on my table, and i would throw the rest.

Okay, i might as well plan now. before i procrastinate.

Main Table: 10 items
- Earring Box: 5 pairs of earrings and 2 necklaces
- Stationery: 2 pens, 2pencils, 2 everything except for eraser, ruler, and the sort.

Side Table: 2 items

Dresses: 15 (I CAN'T BEAR TO THROW THOSE PRETTY THINGS AWAY!!!)

Presentable T-Shirts: 10 (I WILL STICK TO THIS. I WILL STICK TO THIS. I WILL STICK TO...)

Oversized Ts: 8 items

Shorts: 5 items

Skirts: 7 items

Other tops: 10 items (AHHHHH THIS IS KILLING ME)

Bags: 5 items

that is all i can bear to think about for a day. :(

p.s. i can feel the onset of my traditonal (since jc-_-) hermit break every half a year. feel like comatosing in my room for weeks, doing nothing but think and try to deal with issues. and think. and think. and nuah. and try to find me again. lolll.

TOO BAD MY ROOM IS IN THIS CONDITION

2009-05-14T23:34:00.011+08:00

hahaha okays i've so far binged on 3 packets of instant noodles, a few chocs b4 i realised there were ants -____- *pukes*, a few noughats (AWESOME) and just started eating milo powder, mustard, and coleslaw dressing.

YES I AM GROSS. but i can't help it! i finished the entire mustard bottle just dribbling it on bread and then just scooping it into my mouth.

i think i need to stop this man. haha. i just read up about emotional bingeing. apparently when u're

a) traumatised
b) feeling helpless
c) feeling alone
d) feeling empty
e) needing an outlet to vent

u'll tend to associate those feelings with a desire for food!

so i shall try to combat all those without bingeing by:

a) ..... i have no idea how to combat trauma. diary entries?
b) erm. i shall analyse the various "helpless" aspects of my life and write down solutions
c) i shall buy a dog. or a soft toy. whatever works.
d) i shall. talk to myself. like i don't alr. haha.
e) i shall buy a stress ball. or a treadmill.

so, hopefully, after all these plus a room springcleaning and renovation, i will be able to resist bingeing and keep my calories at 2000.

a nice, cosy room will prob deter me from leaving it so often to go to the kitchen, and all those above will prob help me deal with the uncontrollable urges!!!

yup yup.

anyway, while i was undertaking the tumultuous and gritty job of spring cleaning my room, i discovered several artefacts. LOL. okay i'm exaggerrating, but seriously, they seem to date from an age so long ago!!!

haha this was from my sec 1 compulsory journal for school! omg look at the cover hahhahaha. i used to love cats alot. and i can't believe i was alr so mad about liverpool from then!!!

i read the entries then, and i realised.... I WAS ALR DAMN EMO! and i alr liked this style of writing. LOLLLLLLL
and it kinda makes me want to find the book, "The Outsiders" and read it again. i remember it was pretty awesome. one of the more impactful books i've read.

haha and my cheesy poem with a few horrible rhyming mistakes! LOLLLLL.

ANDDD! this is tilted i know, but haha if u can read it u would realise that i've alr had OCD since sec 1! just a different, way milder form.

haha yes i would stand at this particular square on the floor of my sec sch canteen religiously, for as long as i could without being TOO weird, cos i believed this particular square brought me luck. and i even noted down the coordinates!!! LOLLL. i think it was cos i saw my crush twice or thrice while standing in that particular spot. ahahhahaha. and i thought standing there enabled me to see him!!! -_____- oh well. at least it's not as bothersome as my current OCD. which is getting worse day by day.

This was my autograph book from primary school! remember how we used to pass around books for frens to write in pre graduation/ class change?

haha lotsa childish nonsense inside with side splitting poems!!!! i still remember the classic :

Roses are Red,

Violets are Blue.

Boys are Cheap,

Ten cents for Two.

and some... XX xiao xiao pi gu da da. zuo zai ma tong ma tong bao zha. thingy.

anw, this is an entry by my then bestie!!! xiuyu!!! hahaha i still rem her bday is 20th september. used to keep making calls on that date to wish her happy bday years after we graduated. but don't do that now. =( would be kinda weird cos we haven't talked in ages!

her handwriting is awesome. supra neat! and she has this supra gentle voice. hahaha. didn't change years after primary school. haha.

and this!!! RAH. stupid mr tong of TJC. when i was late 11 times in a month for sch cos i wanted to see my sec sch crush walk by my house every morning at 7:27am (yes i am a stalker). haha he made everyone else under punishment report to him at 7:20am at the assembly place but me, and ONLY ME, had to go to his office at 7:15 am every morning to let him sign my book! RAHHHHHHHHH.

haha and from so long ago, i've been doodling my name! i sure love myself.

and hahaha. i always started off a new, nice book trying to plan and organise my life. but... just look at the number of ticks on the "By This Week" to-do list after so many years...

and that was it. the end of my usage of the book. 1 page!!!

and my new start with a new book!!!!

I tried!!! see, so neat somemore! for the first page la.

and it ended off with this!!!!

TADAH!!! 3 pages out of a book and that's it!

found this bottle i koped from Bar Celona! hoho. just liked it then, thought it was pretty.

and this!!! hahaha. from when my hair was wild and lion kingish. yearsss ago!!! with besties! =D <3>

and my ex-maid's present for me!!! this nice looking book, haha. but it was free from underwear purchase i remember. but still, i was reali touched back then. haha.

hai. i was such a fan of owen then... too bad he screwed up by leaving liverpool. it really broke my heart!!!

and BSB! omg haha.

and i was crazy over huan zhu ge ge. my pearl princess or something. hahaa i really loved the beautiful chinese songs then!!! now when i read the lyrics... i actually forgot how some words were pronounced =(

and i was alr a fan of my sec sch, DHS!!! hoho

and.... this. omg. it's from so long ago. years and years. i've damn mixed feelings about this. cos i will never know how the author really felt. if it's all real. or whatever. spent quite some time reading through it.

...

just makes me wonder.

......................

and anw, after seeing all those, it makes me realise how things have changed. SO SO MUCH! from all that innocence, all that certainty about life, all...THAT, to what i've become. and i know regrets don't solve anything and people keep saying look forward, not back, learn from your mistakes, but still. i can't help wishing to turn back time and change some things. not all, but just a few crucial ones. and that overwhelming need to go back and change things brings me down.

lol for one thing, i could've NOT been late for sch 11 times!!! and saved myself a month of torture. and put more effort in science hahaha! cos engine seems like a nice, simple place for a geek like me to go to.

yes geek i am! haha. well. i'm kinda proud of it! at least i can shoot zombies. can u??????

2009-05-14T09:54:00.003+08:00

haha!!! back from BKK!!! pretty fun trip!!! lotsa shopping, fooding, fooling around with the peeps!!! =D

the food there was one of the highlights i think!!! haha super cheap and pretty good!!! the pics below are just some of the food we ate!!! =D

haha and here are some random pics of the things we did in BKK!!!
and a couple of pics that i reali like!! =D hehe.

on the plane to bkk!

nice shott!!!

weird but nice shot!

pretty flower!

okays hahaha i m spring cleaning my room and found alot of things that made me laugh and made me nostalgic!!! shall blog about them later hahahaha

2009-05-08T05:47:00.002+08:00

haha taboo was pretty fun! with the exception of the guy with blood pouring down is head and splattering on his t-shirt la.

and haha i just watched heroes epi 17. SO AAWESOME!!!!

*SPOILER ALERT FOR SEASON 1*

LOL i have no idea who would be as lag as i am, but just in case. haha. anyway i am SOOOO touched by claire's dad! i mean, i reali thought he was pretty -_- but after what he did to get her out of his company's reach, it really, really touched me! didn't just betray his company for her but risked his life and lost his memory.

AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW

*SPOILER OVER*

yea. haha my hol plans of grandeur are like no where near fruition or even beginning. i gotta start on them man! or i bet i'll just procrastinate til sch starts and i'll be back at square one.

should i watch another heroes?!?!

2009-05-07T11:43:00.001+08:00

YAY !!!

i'm finally done with designing the image for my blog. but damn. haha it looks noob!!! illustrator is so much harder to use than i thought!!!! =(

oh well, at least it's personalised!

anyway happy bday evonne and oeta!!!!

2009-04-29T21:43:00.003+08:00

so can't be botherrrrrrrred.

exams are over and life's been awesome! hahaha. still trying to fnd a new blogskin to replace my mug blogskin, oh well.

the song "soft kitty warm kitty little ball of fur. happy kitty sleepy kitty pur pur purrr.." has been ringing in my head since penny sang it to sheldon in the recent episode of big bang and it's kinda awesome! like super addictive and kinda soothing in way. guess i can sorta understand why sheldon demands it. hoho.

i shall upload pics when i have FINALLY a) designed a blogskin b)found a blogskin c) feel like it.

lalalala

YES and i am going to climb mt kinabalu and do white water rafting!!! YES YES YES YES!!!!

hahahhaa and right after my diving trip toooooooooooo!!!!!

gotta work like mad man. i've only saved up for thailand trip so far.

2009-04-27T02:05:00.008+08:00

i am back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hahaha the food was awesome. the hotel was awesome.

the heat killed!!!

oh well lazy to upload pics!! hoho

2009-04-24T23:26:00.002+08:00

oh well. i wish i still had corel. illustrator is so...foreign!

anyway exams are over, and so far i've done a part of wad i've wanted to do.

clubbed on tue and wed, finished the season 2 of big bang theory, gonna start on how i met ur mother, played left4dead overnight, going overseas (ok just msia) tml, going thailand if it's peaceful again...

but there's still so so so so so much more to do!!!

haha shucks i just ate pizza meal at pizza hut, with awesome anderson icecream, then i came hope to eat mee goreng instant, and now i'm having a small area of rashes?! cannot be allergc right!!!

it's sambal mee goreng! should be have nothing weird in it right?!

omg damn itchy.

rahhhhhhhhhh.

2009-04-20T03:12:00.004+08:00

was supposed to be doing what the above dictates, but ended up drawing the above out.

it's happening again.

can't sleep. just lying in bed, wondering if it was the coffee, the food, the nap in the day. and trying not to think.
xiang lai xiang qu dou shi yi yang de shi qing.

life has really made me think. to revise my previous prejudices.

when life was simple and straightforward, i judged alot. Why would she do that? Who the hell would let that happen? Omg she's such a _______ (insert insult here).

then things happened. to me. loserish stuff, crappy stuff, complicated stuff, heartbreaking stuff, things that made me blind with fury, things that made me hate, things that made me doubt myself, sad, pathetic, things that made me confused... so so many stuff.

and i finally realised one thing.

we should never judge cos we'll never know the exact reasons why someone did something, what exactly he/she was thinking when he/she did that, the circumstances, the ku zhongs (i hope this is the right word).

it took things happening to me and my doing things i used to smirk at, despise, etc to make me realise how judgmental i was. and how judgmental the world is. and unforgiving.

so maybe those "complicated" girls aren't so complicated afterall. and vice versa.

2009-04-16T19:31:00.001+08:00

haha i'm inspired by dhika to put a countdown on my blog too! kinda torn between a nice yellowish sunflowerish type one and this, but this one looks giddier which is closer to what i'd feel about the end of exams!!! HOHOHO

MySpace Countdowns

2009-04-16T04:07:00.000+08:00

haha i can't wait for exams to be over!

publication design is OVER! tried to apply the notes to the q so i dun just copy paste, but reali not much time and frankly, just wanted to get it over and done w?!

BS803! and i'm super worried that i'll have no time to finish 206!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

2009-04-13T06:38:00.002+08:00

Movies I Wanna Watch After Exams :
inspired by BS803, COM206

1) Ultra-Violet
2) Matrix Marathon
3) Gattacca
4) Jurassic Park
5) Minority Report
6) The Birth of a Nation

and i forgot!! i remembered i had loooooong list one!

okays mugs. and anime.

2009-04-12T07:28:00.004+08:00

okay, it's 0728 and i'm still awake because...well, believe it or not, i was thinking about my future!

I was pondering over what to major in, and stuffs. like advertising, PR, the usual routes, or journ?

and i went thru almost every aspect.

and i'm still trying to sort my thoughts out, so i'm gonna do those pros and cons kinda list.

JOURNALISM:

Pros:

1. I've always wanted to write on soccer. My Dream Job.

2. I may get to do photography!

3. I really want to work in a fashion magazine, and do write-ups and stuff on fashion.

4. I'll get to dress up everyday, get freebies.

5. Relatively unstressful.

6. More down-to-earth

7. If i learn photog it'll be a plus!

Cons:

1. Low pay.' (BIG BIG CONSIDERATION)

2. Female sports journalists aren't really that common in Singapore.

3. Feels like a waste of Uni education

4. I don't need to major in journ to DO journ in future.

5. I DO NOT WANT TO END UP DOING SERIOUS JOURN. cherian george killed tt thought.

ADVERTISING:

Pros:

1. Creative and fun industry.

2. Lots of partying.

3. Higher pay (as compared to journ)

4. Sense of satisfaction

Cons:

1. Very competitive. Very bitchy. Very pretentious people.

2. Partying with pretentious people.

3. I am anti-social. And a retard in social stuff sometimes.

4. I am not usually creative. At least not to the standards of present-day advertising

5. I'll be WORKING with pretentious people even before entering the industry.

PUBLIC RELATIONS:

Pros:

1. Big money, if done right.

2. Can organise exciting events.

3. Can meet exciting people.

4. Exciting lifestyle.

Cons:

1. Needs organisational skills. (which i fail at. EPIC-LY)

2. Exciting events + Exciting people = Truckloads of BITCHY, mounds of pretentious people.

3. And I'm just gonna reiterate this: I am socially retarded at times.

4. I have a short temper. I can't control my emotions well.

5. Stressful.

Okays. So it seems like i really want journ, but i'm just really, really scared. of being unable to earn enough to lead a comfortable life in future. And yea, don't tell me nonsense like "marry a rich guy!", cos seriously. IT WOULD SUCK to be reliant on someone other than urself. Because there is no one, NO ONE in this world whom you can 100% count on to be there for you, to take care of you, to never let you down, abandon you one day, except yourself.

So, in other words, it's money + stress + social fears VS happy + poor.

and then i realised...

TADAH! i don't even know if i've completed the requirements to get into journ.

cos my mindset from the start was, get into PR/Advert, and just go into journ in future if i want to, cos i don't really need a degree to do fashion/sports journ.

but now i'm thinking, why bother with 2 years of torture and tears if i'm really NOT going to go into adv/pr in future?

BUT the thing is, am i???

and i realised yet another thing.

IS IT TOO LATE TO SELECT MY MAJOR?!?!?!?!?!?!? when is the deadline?!

somebody just kill me.

2009-04-11T22:32:00.001+08:00

hahahahahaha

muggerlian still loves liverpool OH YEA! hahaha and i reali did get my 4-0! says:
lalala. see can 4-0 not la!
.::{ryan} 1-Imperfectly perfect::. says:
hahaha
nah we aint greedy
above liverpool can alr
can laugh at oe
arsenal trailin 1 0
haha
muggerlian still loves liverpool OH YEA! hahaha and i reali did get my 4-0! says:
HAHAHHAA
so sad!
hahahaha
okay i feel awesomer now
.::{ryan} 1-Imperfectly perfect::. says:
hahahahah
arsenal small fry leh
dun care one
hahahha
muggerlian still loves liverpool OH YEA! hahaha and i reali did get my 4-0! says:
hahahaha i should SO copy paste this
i think someone will feel the OUCH

YEA HAHAHHAHAA.

RELIEF

2009-04-11T21:40:00.001+08:00

haha. this morning i was shocked. cos my weight was suddenly 48kg.

so i didn't eat as much for lunch, just egg tarts and bread.

AND TADAH!!! i went to do my business just now and my weight's 46kg again!!!

PHEW. i was seriously like, WHAT?!?! when i saw my morning's weight.

haha now i know i was probably just literally full of s***

thank god!

2009-04-11T03:57:00.005+08:00

had happy coffee today! feel kinda arghed at 206 readings. it doesn't feel like i'm mugging, or anything, cos the stuff we learn there is so....unsciencey and stuffs.
It's like how i always reacted. The things i did that i always ended up regretting. I ran. I hid from it. I escaped. and in the process threw everything away.
and i'm wondering when the cycle will end.
It's been nice to disappear, to huddle in my shell, my own safe, detached world.It's the easier thing to do. To put my head down and wait til things resolve themselves.

and i can't wait til exams are over!

2009-04-09T04:45:00.003+08:00

wat blik ek maak aan pleeg it almal sal ver?

had kind of an awesome supper of the awesome dry instant noodles. one packet is never enough!

and i didn't know cs' welfare this yr was so awesome. they had the koon seng or dunno wad v common brand's cookies! SO NICE. simple, but nice. and waffles! had happy times devouring 3 tins of that.

and then i wasted another night. =(

damn chelsea.

2009-04-07T08:38:00.002+08:00

واجهة المبنى منهك ساخر غير مدروس مقت منطق عبر عن فشل تلف

FY,S. SYFA. JD.

2009-04-05T03:53:00.005+08:00

I'm a retard. seriously.

cos i'm loserish like that, i gave up on mugging and went to make fondue for my strawberries!

...

or rather, tried to make.

by this time, the smoke should've warned me of the shittiness of what was to come. but i persevered! still taking pics cos i thought i could show awesome pretty fondue and strawberries pics. sigh.

and THEN, the flames should've warned me!! but still, i persevered.

and...TADAH!!!!!!!!! grossness.

i refused to waste the choco, so i swiped them on the strawberry and ate it like that.
gross much?

=(

plus dropped chunks of the burnt choco on the floor. and when i frantically went to pick them up (the ants in my house are FAST), i burnt my fingers. tralala.

oh well, what can i say. at least i ate half the choco before throwing it in to burn!!!

2009-04-04T23:15:00.001+08:00

haha this is ridiculous!

i slept at 6 am + i THINK, and the next thing i knew, my parents were banging on the door asking me to go out w them for a meal, and that it was 7.

so naturally i thought they meant breakfast. and tt it was 7am. but then i suddenly realised, my parents will nv be as inconsiderate as to wake me at 7 am just to go for breakfast.

so then i woke my cleopatra (my lappie) up and it showed 7pm.

then i thought, "oh no pris's party!"

and went back to slp.

and i just woke up an hour ago at 10pm!

omg on one hand i'm glad my bout of insomnia is over, on the other, i'm like, 16 HOURS?!?!?!

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

that's it i'm gonna mug now!

2009-04-04T06:20:00.005+08:00

cos i was bored, i edited pics!

oh well. why can't i slp. i was barely awake just now, zombieing awhile, crashing, and i shuffled home to slp, but...

i am suddenly wide awake. on not more than 3 hours slp in total since tue.

ARGH

2009-04-03T21:49:00.006+08:00

ITIF =) i dunno if i should stop. =( CYDSTC.

had awesome times with my gf @ Cat Socrates just now! tt was when the tiredness truly kicked in and i couldn't help concussing on the table there and then. hahaha. snatched a few winks, enough to last me the trip back. but still managed to fall aslp on the mrt, wake up in a hurry, and shuffled out at the wrong stop. hai.

had fun cam whoring and all!!!

hehe and ade's right. maybe i should just spill all! i mean, i've nothing to lose right? hehe. will be a shiok experience.

so tempted.

ah hem so anyway had awesome pics!

some pink drop that appeared on my page!

shot from the window we were sitting by

awesome dark choc cake!

close up of the awesomeness!

drool baby drool! haha.

and the cappucino

so cute right the arrangement!

and could draw on the coasters there. not i draw one la. haha. mine was a simple stik figurish thing =(

me there! i just realised my tube suits the wall.

my pretty babe!

and the herbal tea she specially woke up early to make for me =) touchedddd <3

and here's px after her performance as an emo rocker chick. hahaha u were crazy la!

besties!

me and gf!!!

and my fringe extensions arrived, but i kind think i need to cut it. cos otherwise, it'd look like .....

THIS -_-:

haha omg la. just like newly post jc times.

shall mugs! haha and shan't worry about stuff cos if ppl's opinions waver tt easily they aren't worth it.

2009-04-03T02:02:00.003+08:00

it was great going home. it's wonderful having parents like that. just a call, and they're here for me, fetching me back to home sweet home, and flooding me w love and concern. it's like everytime i need help, am emo, or something, all i need to do is call. and they'll be there in half an hour or so.

It was nice retreating back to my room, enjoying the aircon, shivering happily in my familiar old pullover. and lying under the covers, mugging. and blasting music.

maybe it's not that bad afterall. going home kind of rejuvenates me.

and i don't know what to say.

2009-04-01T06:06:00.004+08:00

i am now blogging at 0609 because i feel guilty for not mugginz much today.

so i might as well go all the way and do useless stuff like blogging.

i was surfing the sites i used to surf, all the art galleries on fantasy. Angels, faeries, fairies, mythical scenes...

and i suddenly thought of this picture i used to be fascinated by. i was so in love with it it was my computer's wallpaper, my msn dp, etc.

it was in secondary school that i first saw it i think. and now, years later, i went to google the image. i typed "woman ocean dress" etc variations but didn't find it, so i decided to type what i typed years ago : "fantasy pictures"

and i found the same webbie!!! i remember it so well tho it's been years. i was damn excited la!

and here's the picture!!! now i know the artist's name. Jonathan Bowser. At least i'd be able to find that piece of art easily in future.

this is lovessss =) =D =P =>

it's gorgeous! the beautiful gown, the way the flowing tides are blended into the dress, the way the rippling fabric dissolves into the ocean...

sigh. i wish i could draw. this well. or even half as. 1/10th. or something.

it's sooo gonna be my wallpaper again after exams!

cos right now, this is my wallpaper:

just like how this blog is like. post exams, post exams. that's when life will start again.

2009-04-01T02:06:00.002+08:00

haha. i feel super...restless and nuah!

ever since the stupid drain incident i haven't been running, and cos of SOME STUFF i prob can't swim til thur at least.

so basically life has been unexercisey and i miss the feeling of perspiration and exertion! grrr.

i shall tiger balm the foot to death so it can finally be up for running! and take care to steer clear of drains.

oh wells i better go mug. for the 150.

OH AND -_-!!!! great april's fool joke sia. really got me! -_-

2009-03-30T22:46:00.002+08:00

and after all this time, i still haven't learnt.

life is all about rainbows and bubbles.

-MUG-to be 150 richer. and to avoid -50.

2009-03-30T02:07:00.004+08:00

okay, that was sad.

we thought intermediate was easy, so expert should be doable.

EPIC FAIL. GIVE UP.

now everytime b4 i type something on msn. i keep feeling the need to type "y" before i speak. haha.

On a happier note!! hoho!!! i saw my XYZ today!!! been like half a yr?!?! and haha the rush of high was crazy man. =D=D=D=D=D=D=D=D

these kinds are perfect. far enough to stay perfect. =P

plussss i got my charger back! i asked the pacific guy to ask the girl on the prev shift. and he did! and he called me when i was half aslp at px's hse. and when i went back,my charger was nicely tied up and put in a pacific coffee paper bag and sealed up!

SO TOUCHED SIA.

argh oh shit i reaaaalllyyy need to mug.

NOW.

2009-03-29T02:54:00.002+08:00

arghhh its alr nearing 3 but i'm still at the start of the lecture slides! oh well but at leasti finished polymers.

my attention span is zilch when it comes to chemistry. maybe it's the fact that i S/Ued it also la.

and the bloody mosquito is killing me! i just placed my hand randomly on my leg and i felt 8 bites there. and both my legs are flooded with bites. i spotted the MF but dun think i managed to kill it.

i think i need another mocha brownie. and another apple crumble. but i'm bloated.

i wish i could see into ppl's thoughts. know what they mean, what they're feeling etc. makes life so much easier.

okay GPA 5 here i come!

2009-03-28T23:27:00.003+08:00

results for chemistry's out! got an 87 and i was contemplating if i should still S/U it, when i scrolled up and down and saw tonnes of 90+s. so...i guess i should still S/U it?

desperately need to do awesome for 223 etc. i'm stressed!

to pull up my GPA to at least 4 by this semester, i need to get a 4.86 this semester.

which means 4 As, 1 A-. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

=(

EDIT:

DAMNNNNNNNNNNNNN. i realised i'm S/Uing chemistry, so it'll be 4 subs. and 223's 4 au mod. so i can't get below an A for it or it's GG for the 4.86. so i've to get all As!

oh wow.

2009-03-28T00:04:00.002+08:00

haha. i feel a sense of accomplishment! i actually kept to my target and mugged til 9 am for BS803. and finished it. while being able to remember what i studied!

heh. just did the paper. was kiiiind of okay.

and then went for lessons only 10 min late!

and the filming.

and after slping from 4+ pm til 9+ pm, i went to the airport to mug. so here i am!

and i don't know why such things make me flounder. i can't believe i'm weak enough to feel scared about such situations.

2009-03-27T06:39:00.003+08:00

just had my madness binge!

had awesome thai express curry v rice and the erm not bad tapioca thingy.

then moved on to my awesome jap chococookies. and i finished the entire box.

then was kong's roomie's bread. the entire half a loaf left with most of the jam =X.

then the japanese ATAS polky. then dove choc. then some choc. courtesy of wing!

and then coffee. and then almond cookies. finished all of dhika's almond ones.

and guess wad?! I HAVE CRAVING FOR CROQUETTE BURGER!

i'm like ?!?!! at myself! i'm super bloated, uncomfy, but i just can't get the craving out of my head. hahahahahhahaha

-______________________-

i am. going. to . mug. finish. BS803. today.

2009-03-25T21:28:00.008+08:00

haha i really dunno why i seem to always end up blogging when i should be mugging. i intend to finish with bs803 today and move on to 206 readings/chem, but everytime i'm done w a section i need to distract myself. even if the section took only 15 min to get thru. or less.

so anyway, cos i'm bored, i'm going to upload a couple of artsy fartsy shots taken at ADM, plus weird camwhoring stuffs. hahaha

this was @ siglap gelare with nessie!

and mugging @ S4! haha lazy to do the photoshop, dhika or kong u all do laaa.

awesome sundae!!! i wonder why it's called a sundae. not monday or anything else. maybe the first ones were made on a sunday? =P

haha happy hotcakes!!! miss doing this to my hotcakes when eating breakky with my besties.

haha awesome 206!! it's like the best mod ever!!! the awesome vidcam i kinda suck at using:part of our one-min vid is:

okay here goes random ADM shots!!!

hehe i took this trying to frame the outside like a picture. but a bit fail. nvm i shall photoshop one day!!!

emo shot attempts! (i forced myself to think of drains and sprained foot to get that expression)

i wonder what he was thinking off! ji emo.

haha i still love this art piece @ ADM.

failed attempt at artistic shot of ADM lib's sign!

kong's futuristic shot of ADM lib.

haha me and gv 11 mates camwhoring @ ADM after we were finally done with the final project!

hahasee the difference btwn unswelled and swelled feet!

SWOLLEN!!
thank god for joce's tiger balm man. it's like awesomely recovered now. within like a night? hoho.

okay shit i better start conc on mugging.

oh and side note!

i realised something! for turtles, eggs from cooler nests hatch as female, while eggs from warmer nests hatch as male.and for american alligators, high or low temperature alligators are female, intermediate ones are male.

this just shows that guys are cool, logical ppl, with little emotion, while females are warmer people and more emtional! HAHAHA. does it make sense?

ah hem. mug.

2009-03-24T05:35:00.001+08:00

now even my toes are swollen =(

on a positive note, that made me able to take awesome photos showing the swollen toes in a pretty grotesque way that looks kinda.... artistic?

and thanks joce for the cheesecake which i ended up finished totally, i'm so sorry, and the pepsi i ended up drinking everything, i'm sorry again, and for the choc which i only finished half a packet ahhaha.

and the tiger balm! i can actually FEEL something in my toes now! like a tingling sensation rather than the numb, stiff feel.

okays i shall go to slp b4 my tummy explodes.

2009-03-23T03:52:00.002+08:00

hahahaha just had to upload this !!! =D

finally i passed MOST of the stage finals alr!!! hohoohohoho. other than the one where kong shot me dead just before i boarded the helicopter. -_-

let's play that map agains sooon!!! garena???

hahahaha ah hem. i'm supposed to be efficiently mugging.

somethings are just too complicated to fathom. too tiring to understand. i've made my decision and i think this time i'm sticking to it. MLL has been shelved for too long.

2009-03-22T06:24:00.005+08:00

I am so pissed! i just realised that the stupid pub design assignment is freaking biased!!!!

i had 33 pages of microsoft words to squeeze into 40 InDesign pages, not even including the pictures yet!!!!

and the other assignments (we've assignment A - E) have like, 14 pages?!?? 10?!?!?! and one even had 5?!?!?!

HOW MUCH DIFFERENCE IS THAT!!! all my design plans went to hell after i realised i didn't have the SPACE for design!

i had to chuck everything in and squeeze like hell to get the words and pictures to fit into 40 InDesign pages. By the time i was done, any semblance of aesthetic pleasure and design were POOFED away.

DAMN DAMN UNFAIR!!! 33 and 5 pages is a great difference!!! DAMN U PROF!!! (if u ever happen to read this i don't mean it)

i spent like 13 hoursto do that stupid assignment laaaaaaa grr..

on happier note, met up with besties ytd! wanted to go timbre but after climbing up the SUPER LONG flight of steps at old school's timbre, it was full =( and the waiting list was loong.

so we went cafe cartel instead, but could've just gone TM =(

i love cartel's milkshakes cos they're cheap compared to starbucks or pacific!

went to mug at aiport w px and. erm. it was slightly efficient. hahahahhaa. the highlight of the night was still the awesome supperheroes poster!!! it's like my desktop wallpaper now!!! haha. wish i could photoshop something like that.

awesome strawberry cheesecake!!!

see the gluttonish look on her facE!

and there was a rainbow and sunset when i woke at 6+pm! hahaha. but i slept at 7am cos of the stupid ghost stories i heard and had to wait til morning b4 i dared to slp. so the late hour is excusable.

the view from my house is awesome =P

haha and here are some awesome shots taken during the awesome suppertrip round singapore!!!

really loved the feeling of the wind in my hair, the crazy singing and screaming and camwhoring on the back of a lorry going at like 100??? wing is maddd!!!!

at the cheesecake cafe!!! awesome shot. thanks dhika! haha evonne this is awesome right?!

and the classic shot!!!! looks like pao ba hi zi kinda poster. hoho.

me cherteck evonne's emo shots!

hahaha =D

haha i really donno wad shots to choose so it's random aweome shots =D

haha i'm the flyer at singapore flyer!!!

awesome shot while on the lorry! i risked pixie and my arm sticking it out backwards!

and evonne! i photoshopped this for u!!!!!!!!!!

hahahahaha lorry madness!

okay i'm mugging w nessie at siglap now, kinda can't concentrate cos it's SCIENCE. and i'm super tempted to play left 4 dead. =(

love supperheroes!!! we should go dance pracs again!!!

2009-03-22T05:53:00.000+08:00

DAMN haha i just heard from my fren the stupid post BY WING SING was misunderstood by them to have been written by me and it sounds like i'm being damn AA!!!

DAMN U WING ahhahaa. but since u put in so much effort i shall not delete it. i shall just state here explicitly that:

THE BLOG POST WITH MY UGLY SLPING PICTURE WAS NOT BLOGGED BY ME!!!

unethical ppl used my account when i DIDN'T SIGN OUT!!!

=(

2009-03-20T19:35:00.001+08:00

sometimes i really wonder. why do ppl like to try so hard to get something, when in actual fact, what they want is something else? is it just the satisfaction of getting it?

2009-03-18T15:21:00.000+08:00

I am so going to hermit!!! haha i've done a few lecs alr, can't believe i'm keeping up with the stuff! but actually, it's kind of my first time going thru the stuff, i bet ppl are like on their second or third read-through alr.

I NEED TO BUCK UP!!!!!!!!

and after the crazy day of L4D overnight, i'm kinda unhooked from the game alr, but a little hint of it is coming back!!! damnnnnn.

i shall go play around with the sketch pad!

oh and happy 21st jocelyn!!

2009-03-12T23:52:00.001+08:00

WAIT EDIT. HAHAHHAHAHA WING U WILL PAY FOR THAT.

but anw, I GOT ON THE BOAT!! I ESCAPED A FINAL STAGE FOR L4D!!!

The Day I did NOT sign out of my blog

2009-03-12T20:29:00.006+08:00

i don't know why people are saying i'm bimbotic. i mean. if you call somebody daxiang (elephant in case you bimbos out there thought it was DANIEL like me) obviously you would think that it is related to their nose right? LONG NOSE? i mean. who would think that the EARS are actually the related one. aren't monkeys the ones that have big ears? sighs.

and oh. my super handsome friend got a parking ticket. and i'm wondering if one day i run too fast, whether some traffic police will stop me and say "HEY YOU RUN TOO FAST IM GONNA SUMMON YOU!" that'd be SO COOL! only that'll happen like after 100000 years and when i don't get my con-stitch-pations when i run. =(((

oh and i'm totally hooked on left4dead. it's this uber awesome game where you just run around and shoot those dead zombies and stuff. sadly enough i never managed to survive the escape (which is the aim of the game, like duh) cause it's either i always run in the wrong direction or i get shot by my teammate. i mean. who can resist sadistic games where you just shoot random zombies and see their heads blown off?! haha!

oh but i'm SO PROUD of myself! i managed to study 10 slides in like half an hour! this is what i've been studying during my oh-so-constructive session in wing's room! at least i didn't fall asleep like that:

i love t-rexes

okay im sooooo gonna get my gpa ABOVE 4.0 this sem. im gonna left4dead all the way till 11pm before coming back to mug. cya! =)

2009-03-12T13:35:00.004+08:00

hard to let go of regrets.

2009-03-10T21:45:00.001+08:00

subcomm night was pretty funny =) kinda just waiting for the food at first, but the performance was pretty good =)

glad to see nice ppl in my og!

felt a bit like a fugitive.

2009-03-09T02:54:00.001+08:00

why won't that nagging feeling go away!!??

why won't i just stop ____ ????

okay i am going to slp early. driving me nuts.

2009-03-08T02:10:00.007+08:00

finally met up with lien and lisan! separately. will b seeing peixun tml i'm so happie =)

IHATE MY HIGH FOREHEAD. and it wasn't my fringe extensions that arrived! it was another purchase i forgot about.

?awesome? reunion meal with lisan. OKAY I WILL BE HONEST. apparently lisan's steak w pasta sucked. she added tonnes of salt, chilli, pepper. my baked potato with veges and cheese was not bad, but nothing awesome. ice cream okay. pwned by today's icecreams for sure. but mushroom soup rawked!

HAHA I'M SO HAPPY TODAY!!!

firstly, i got to eat my fav instant mee goreng, a whole huge package of my fav pineapple tarts, and today, WAS ICE CREAM MARATHON!!! plus awesome Mad Jack Cafe!

I feel kinda bad, cos i think i ate more than my share (according to daphne her two portions is less than my one and kong said n i realised that i'm always asking "can i finish it?"). but oh well, i know u ppl love me too much to mind right?! RIIIGHHHT?!?!?!

First stop, Seventh Heaven!!!

Second, U.d.d.e.r.s!!!! PRETTY DARN AWESOME.

Then was awesome Island Creamery!!!

And our usual Cold Rock!

I LOVE THE WAY ICE CREAM AND CHOCOLATES MAKE ME FEEL!

especially spiked icecreams!!!

haha so we had plenty of car-rides today...

oh and we had a break from ice cream and ate AWESOME CHEESE FRIES at Mad Jack Cafe! and this not as awesome cheese-covered bread.

LOVEEE <3>
okay i messed up the order, so the pics are randomly arranged!

This was @ u.d.d.e.r.s. i think!! with the awesome "Got 2 cows?" joke book thingy. laughed my head off at one of the countries. =P

U.d.d.e.r.s is my fav! the rum rum raisin had double the rum and the rum taste was overpowering! the durian pwned! it's a MUST-TRY. the tira-miss-u and the baileys were goooooooood too!

haha i stunned for a few minutes when they wrote my name on the board when i wasn't looking. and claimed they didn't.

LOVE UDDERS. =) the ice cream shop one la.

more camwhoring on car rides.

This was Seventh Heaven?! haha omg the choc dunno what icecream there with whiskey was ownage. I AM SERIOUS. so thick, so chocolatey, i understood why the place was called seventh heaven. and made me wish the dark choc wasn't out of stock. the others like lychee martini was supposedly damn good too, but i've never managed to appreciate ice cream flavours other than choc, coffee, cookies, and the same family type. so it was only not bad to me.

pretty awesome choc cake tho!

hmmm i think this was.........udders. hahaha

gluttons!

Cold Rock! hehe i chose choc as toppings for the mango sorbet. cos i forgot it was mango. weird combi. but the Nuts For You is awesome!!! despite substituting ferraro for peanut butter cos OOS.

okay wait back to island creamery with supperheroes. hahaha awesomeness!

2009-03-07T05:15:00.003+08:00

i can't sleeeeeep!! my body clock is so screwed. It was 4 am when i first logged off msn to bathe, and then...

i started reading celeb blogs. hai.

i'm supposed to wake at eleven to go post office get my awesome fringe extensions, haha YES LAUGH ALL U WANT cos i LOLed at the idea of clipping fake fringe on at first too!

until i saw a fren do it and it looked damn good. and damn natural.

So i ordered one!! and i'm assuming the package left uncollected at the PO would be it! since the 2 other blogshop items i've ordered have alr arrived.

okay i am refusing to slp in my room til i find the time to clean it up, so i'm sleeping on the living room couch. which would be totally cool, if not for the fact that it's made of wood. like those natural looking TOTALLY WOODEN AND EXTREMELY HARD couches. can i even call it a couch? or issit a bench? thank god for the 10001 cushions i have to cushion my sleep.

in the meantime, i shall go watch a movie.

no i meant sleep.

argh really wish could do the hall canvassing thing. imagine just wearing a liverpool jersey and standing on top of an open air bus and screaming stuff like "I LOVE LIVERPOOl!" and getting paid for it?! too bad those saturdays are committed.

ICE CREAM OUTING + PRESENT BUYING TML!!!

so excited! Seventh Heaven ought to be awesomezz and island creamery, cold rock have already proven themselves awesome! and U.d.d.e.r.s seems pretty coolbeans.

okay but first i've to be able to wake at 11 am to get my clip on fringe from the PO.

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

2009-03-06T00:25:00.002+08:00

I AM GOING TO CALL MY MUM TO ASK ABOUT BANGKOK TRIP!!!

but i just asked my dad out for lunch on sunday!!! so i'm afraid he may misunderstand that i'm asking him out just to persuade him to let me go, but it's NOT!!!

rah. oh well.

p.s. DHIKA U ARE A CERTIFIED BLOG STALKER PRO =P

2009-03-04T15:20:00.002+08:00

ARGH. *stabs myself*

CBC is so argh?! why i gey kiang go take chemistry when i didn't take it in A levels!

couldn't answer a few qs, and for a question that i answered, i saw that the studious-looking person next to me from whom i borrowed calculator, had a different ans from mine! and since i saw him copying one of my ans, i unguiltily copied his ans.

AND IT WAS WRONG. mine was right!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

and left a 5 mark one basically blank. drew weird symbols hoping they'll coincidentally resember the answer, or somehow voodoo the prof into giving me an A.

=((((

2009-02-28T16:49:00.002+08:00

haha i am super tempted to watch the island now. my parents were watching it ytd and sadly i caught the various key moments in the show, which totally spoils the suspense for me. but i still wanna watch!! i'm trying to brainwash myself to forget the spoilers.

on the other hand, i could keep the dvd for after exams, and do cards now. oh well i'm bored anyway...

2009-02-27T16:10:00.002+08:00

I've realised that i usually Binge whenever i feel like i need to do something, like there's something missing, that gnawing sense of a desire to have/do something, But i've no idea what. I would usually just turn to food, which somewhat placates me, But doesn't satisfy completely, feeling like an unmatched piece of a puzzle forcefully fitted in just to fill in the gap. Hence i tend to just keep on eating, trying to get rid of the urge to do something, and B4 i realise it, i'm Bloated and the feeling is STILL gnawing at me.

so i'm thinking, mayBe i can somehow psycho myself to view mugging as a form of satisfying that nagging sense of idunnowhat. like everytime i feel that, i'd think, "mayBe i can satisfy it By mugging!" and B4 i know it, i'll have mugged the entire syllaBus and i'll still wanna mug!!

hoho.

anw i'm typing with capital Bs cos i'm at home using my spoilt keyBoard which doesn't have a functioning B and all the symBols, hence i've to copy and paste from this list of keys missing from my keyBoard on notepad which i accumulated from google each time i want to type something and the key's spoilt. and the B i have in the notepad list is a capital one, and Being yiting, i'm lazy to google a lower cased B. so....ya. i'm pressing control v everytime i need a B.

it's tough to keep trying for things, to keep wanting to Be someone you're not (a mugger, a responsiBle person, a creative and capaBle person :( ), hence i'm just going to stop trying for anything, except: results, healthy lifestyle

haha from today onwards, my main priorities in life would Be: studies. to B a health nut so i'll live healthily longer. like maye i'll B a marathon runner at age 80. hahahahahha.

ah hem. tt's all!

p.s. i finally threw the remaining Box of cadBury's choc after i ONCE AGAIN couldn't resist eating the entire Box when i'm at home. then googled the calories and found around 1k ! hahaha. i'll just skip supper.

2009-02-26T02:11:00.003+08:00

today was an epic FAIL for my resolutions.

i ate 4 chocolates (failure 1), didn't swim (failure 2), mugged 20 slides (hmmm), ate wasabe chips (fail again), and alot alot of the daiso bought instant cream soup (fail x 10). oh plus coffee can (...).

BUT. i went sentosa and played a bit of vball. ah hem.

and i'm running to jp and back again tml !!! kinda makes up for it right?

AND i haven't touched coke zero today, only ytd. hahahaha. where i drank 2. =(

oh well. improvements take time.

2009-02-24T22:57:00.005+08:00

random pics we took at vivo!

this was when the fila ppl came out just to laugh at us. lol

awesome!! managed to go up. haha cheerleading helps!

love white dog cafe!!!

no cheerleading got photoshop!!!

2009-02-24T16:45:00.002+08:00

so far, my resolutions have beennnn..... partially fulfilled.

I drink coke light instead of coke zero now, and in much lesser quantities.

I WANTED, REALLY WANTED to go swimming just now, even put on sun tan lotion, then when i walked out w my towel and goggles i realised it was raining -_-

I have studied 24 slides of chemistry this hols so far.

i have kept under 2 chocs per day, unless u count chocolate truffles, and cold rock ice cream.

BUT i said choc, not cakes or anything, so i guess...it's a kept resolution!!!!

I shall bathe now to wash off the freaking suntan lotion . and mugggggggggggg.

2009-02-23T04:21:00.003+08:00

it's 4.33 am, and i had just done touching up the supPer heroes thing @ around 4.14 am!!!

hehe the after result!!

In progress...

Daphne's!!

Mine in progress, at an even earlier stage

Daphne's!

first stage!!

Hahaha sense of satisfaction despite the tiredness, and i'm damn happy looking at it now!

2009-02-22T23:05:00.001+08:00

ARGH i've had ENOUGH of my weirdness and my OCD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

everyone is telling me i'm weird, and tho some of them say it in a joking way, i take it matter-of-factly because i know that i AM weird.

YITING STOP BEING WEIRD STOP THE OBSESSIVE THING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-02-22T03:42:00.002+08:00

haha! it's been awesome having whole days to myself with nothing to do but slack, eat, watch videos, discover that PHEW i stopped gaining weight despite the bingeing, and after 2 whole days of such shiokness, i am starting today with an awesome recovery plan!!!

from later onwards, i will:
1) eat healthily. no more than 2 chocs a day, no fries!
2) swim daily!!!!!
3) have intensive mugging sessions in school. (home is so NOT conducive)
4) drink plain water. LOTS
5) cut down on coke zero!!! or coke for that matter.

So starting later, it will be a get tip top health and catch up on studies week! PLUS i am going to a sensei early morning to erm, let him crack my back or something.

HOHOHO. i sense mugging. i sense health. i sense AWESOMENESS!!!

p.s. supperheroes to muggerheroes

2009-02-20T08:56:00.002+08:00

Haha hall II dance performance (haha we never reali expected to compete w ppl) @ HO Closing was more or less a success, and even though i was embarrassing x 10000 to be up there moving around when i have no inkling of dance and grooves etc, i must say it was still an awesome experience! All these 2 months + of practice, of nonsense talking, dinners, suppers, mugger sessions etc with the hall dance ppl are really times that i'll treasure and the dance ppl are truly awesome!!

oh and i'm so honoured to have Pixie capture this epic awesome shot!!!

Daphne and Dhika. the DnD !
it's sweetness to the max i tell u! the two have awesome chemistry. though the day b4 i wa still arguing with jade if they had chemistry or it was..........

now i totally agree w jadey!!!

The guys! finally actually looking good with their hairstyles, eyeliner and outfit!

the awesome girls!!!

LOVE HALL II DANCERS!

2009-02-17T04:16:00.001+08:00

haha maybe it'll be better if i refrain. make the karma thing be more punishing. HOHOHO.

okay DSLR is freaking complicated!!!!

2009-02-16T10:18:00.005+08:00

haha i'm missing a lesson! and since my entry wasn't saved i dun feel like blogging again. eh . so. haha. pictures! all messed up!

me joce and daphne made these shirts!!!!! hohoho

half dead from doing the shirts

2009-02-13T04:58:00.003+08:00

chips, ichiban, m&m, oreo, mini oreo, dove choc, jap polky sticks, late night wanton mee, cookies, huge cookies....

I AM DAMN SCARED OIL WILL START OOZING FROM MY PORES

anyway, IWASFVD!!!

=( but not one that will be TBATA la. and definitely NOT FTG.

they're the happiest things on earth.

2009-02-10T05:23:00.009+08:00

okays, it's 5:23am and i've just bathed after coming back from our post supper gossip/planning session with the dance girls. haha today's dance was crazy, finally got inspired enough by impre to really practise dancing. usually i'll be demoralised before i even start cos i suck at dance, so i wouldn't even prac much. but today i really practised, and it feels good!

IMPRESARIO AND ADE BDAY PICS!

oh and anywayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
I WILL NEVER jump from me or daphne's window again. i never knew it was that far from the ground from the second floor! don't worry, it wasn't suicide. haha. i forgot my keys, couldn't lock the door, no one was in and i was late for an unponnable lessons so i locked the door and jumped from daphne's window. i was kind of thinking it'll be near if i jumped to the ledge then to the ground. BUT. the distance from the ledge to the ground is ALOT. when i realised there's no turning back or letting myself down by hanging from the fingertips cos there was a drain underneath, i blocked all thoughts and jumped. AND I FELT A CRAZY PAIN down my back. it was horrid! i was SUPER scared at first cos i couldn't move, my back felt like it broke, and for those few moments i thought i was going to be paralysed or have something really wrong with my back.

omgosh man. i was all like, "dear god, pls let me be fine i'll never do this again!" and after a while i could stagger to a corner to hide while waiting for the pain to subside. it did, but my back ached like crazy and i couldn't move much during dance. and after these few days, i thought things would be fine alr, as i din feel pain, BUT after today's intensive dance prac, the pain came back!
=(

anyway, HAPPY 21st ADE! hehe. some pics from her party:

extensions LOL

lovely overnight k singing session. minus the deadtired part =D

IMPRESARIO! haha congrats ryan dhika wenhao for getting into the finals! u guys did great!

jocelyn's team was awesome too!

swensons with dance ppl!!! awesome vege baked rice

AWESOMEST sticky chewy choc!

SOLO PIC

2009-02-09T00:52:00.006+08:00

the pics i uploaded are gone! haha anyway. had awesome swensons today and watched awesome impre and went awesome k singing and i'm lazy to reblog. hoho.

muggg

2009-02-07T01:34:00.003+08:00

I don't know why it's been bothering me so much. Okay, actually I do. I've never been able to deal with stuff like that the smart way. The way everyone tells me is best. I just can't get past that repulsion, that feeling of self-loathing when i tryto act like everything's fine and dandy. I 've always done things the stupid, straightforward way, following my feelings and not caring about the consequences. And hence ending in all forms of shit, but oh well.

now i'm just going to spend a night with my long kept GDG and promise myself that i'll learn and never let things get to me. never again.

life has stalled long enough.

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okay the 2 layered, 30 roches box polished off by me my have been comforting and awesome at that point of time, but i'm regretting it! wad's more it's after an awesom feast @ kallang's akashyab or something.

DIET STARTS TODAY!. i mean, like RIGHT NOW! hoho

2009-02-06T06:32:00.002+08:00

I feel so much like asking, like getting things out into the open, like confronting, like clearing things up. but i get this feeling it'd end in an explosion or an ugly scene.

So I keep those feelings bottled up, swallow the hurt, and try to imagine that it all doesn't matter that there's a valid reason.

It's tough.

2009-02-04T14:37:00.006+08:00

haha =) just went Holland V with the hall dance peeps ytd! we were all still feeling tired after being crazily high during dance, when the urge to club set in, but realised that clubs probably didn't admit ppl at that late hour. so we went HOLLAND V! haha the 2am Dessert Bar.

camwhoring @ dance room!

guess who's who!

camwhoring in my rooooom! hoho

classic cut me open pose!

awesome foooood. check out the cute stem of the coffee, kahlua, baileys cocktail.

look at the molten choc oooooze out of the awesome lava choc tart!

I WANT THAT BOTTLE HAHAHA

haha despite the peaceful look in these photos, we went crazy blasting music and rolling the windows and sunroof down and bobbying away on the ride back to NTU =D

sure feels great having the wind ruffle your hair, high music thumping and a bunch of crazy ppl bobbing away..

haha and then we went to prank otah and dhika!

one side of each pair of their shoes were placed on the shelter! haha

and underwear stuffed on the door. LOL

oh wells, i shall get back to reality and do my com 223 indesign

2009-02-03T02:44:00.002+08:00

OMG!!! i restrained myself from watching the Liverpool match cos i knew i'm a curse to them! then THEY REALLY WON CHELSEA 2-0!!!!!!!!!!! omg i'm SOOOO happy! hahaha

and i just watched the highlights, accidentally screamed twice watching torres' goal and benayoun + gerrard's near ones were awesome too!!!

AND I AM REALLY MAD AT THE REF THO HE SENT LAMPARD OFF. i mean, that odingwa or wadeva weirdly named guy just BLATANTLY AND PURPOSEFULLY strode up to benayoun and STEPPED ON HIS BACK PUSHING HIM TO THE GROUND BUT THE COCK EYE DIDN'T SEE?!

ah hem. anyway, 2 points to catching up to MAN U! hohoho!

2009-01-29T00:26:00.001+08:00

haha yay! i finally got my GH controller back, PLUS! i got the aerosmith game from fab! thanks man!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haha can play w my bro now.